Straws and prayer-books; dizain des diversionsCabell, James Branch
Philosophy
Straws and prayer-books; dizain des diversions
Cabell, James Branch
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Item, I must cherish my ideas as I do my children, with a great love
commingled with admitted inability to foresee what they may be like
to-morrow. For my ideas and my impressions, in the moment that these
visit and pass away from the consciousness which is I, from the
fragment of consciousness which insecurely lurks inside this skull,
are the only realities known to me in the brief while wherein I am, as
yet, permitted to play with common-sense and piety and death. I will to
enjoy and play with and, it may be, to perpetuate after my flickering
from this skull, these true realities: if I succeed in perpetuating
them, that is well; if I fail, I shall not at all worry about this
failure once I am dead, and I am fairly certain to be dead by and by.
At worst, the ability and the body and the life which transiently were
at my disposal will have been really used, both to make something and
to divert me.... And at best, it would be foolhardy not to keep such
intentions concealed.
Item, with human life as a whole I have no grave concern, and I am
beguiled by no notion of "depicting" it. My concern is solely with
myself. I have no theory of what we call "life's" cause or object;
nor can I detect in material existence any general trend. The stars
and the continents, the mountains and these flustering hordes of men,
every mole-hill and the diligent dancing of gnat swarms,--all appears
to blend in a vagrant and very prettily tinted and generally amusing
stream by which I too am swept onward. If but for my dignity's sake, I
prefer to conceal my knowledge of this fact.
Item, there is upon me a resistless hunger to escape from use and wont:
I seem more utterly resolved than are my fellows, not to be bored: and
it is in my endeavor to evade the tediousness of familiar things that I
am playing--playing, as I know, quite futilely,--with common-sense and
piety and death. Such levity tends, it well may be, to no applaudable
outcome: meanwhile this playing diverts me.... And meanwhile, my
fellows being what they are, my amusement is a matter very profitably
concealed.
Item, I really must, in the teeth of all solicitation, refuse to
plagiarize anything from what people call "nature" and "real life." My
playing, which I term my "art," has no concern with things which, in
any case, are too ill-managed to merit imitation. For, still adhering
to that simile of the prettily tinted stream, I am persuaded my art
need not pretend to be a treatise upon hydrodynamics: my art is well
content to be the autobiography of an unvalued straw adrift in this
sparkling and babbling stream that hastens toward an unguessable ocean.
Let us avoid guesswork, since it is profitless. Let us avoid, too, no
reasonable pains to conceal this fact.
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