French fiction -- 20th century -- Translations into English
The present? The child lifts its eyes and sees its mother. About the
round table, under the warm light of the oil lamp, they are sitting
together. Evening, after dinner. Marc is studying--supposed to be
studying--his lessons for to-morrow; Annette is mending a dress. Neither
of them is thinking of what he is doing. They are trusting to their
machines, their willing servants. The dream rolls on. Annette follows
the current. The child observes her as she dreams. . . . That is a more
interesting spectacle than the lessons his lips are repeating.
Marc seemed never to have noticed what was going on about him during
these years; he could not have explained any of his mother's
occupations. Yet nothing had escaped him. Julien's love. Her love for
Julien. He had been obscurely aware of it. And a jealousy of which he
was not conscious made him rejoice, like a little cannibal who dances
about the stake, in the disastrous climax. His mother remained his. His
property! Did he care so much about her? He had only appreciated her
when someone else had wanted her. He looked at her--those eyes, that
mouth, those hands. In the manner of children who lose themselves in a
detail as in a world--and they are not always wrong--he studied each of
her features. One shadow of an eyelid, the curling of a lip, are
mysterious and vast landscapes. They fascinate the mind of the child.
His glance hovered like a bee up and down the half-open mouth. . . . The
red door. . . . It plunged into the depths, it emerged again. Searching
so closely, he forgot what he was looking at, the woman herself. . . .
A stupor full of affection. . . . He roused himself to remember (ugh)
to-morrow's lesson, a boy he disliked, a bad mark he had hidden from his
mother. . . . And then his attention was caught again by the gleam of
the lamp in the shadow of the room, by the silence of the chamber amid
the rumbling of Paris--that sense of a little island, of a ship at sea,
and the expectation of shore, of what he was going to find, what he was
going to carry away on the ship that would be full of his treasures, his
hopes, the spoils of life he was going to capture. Among these he counted
his mother, her beautiful blond hair and her arched eyebrows. . . . The
little Viking! How much he suddenly loved her! With the ardor of
a lover, but one who had kept the gift of divine ignorance! And at
night, lying awake, he listened to her breathing. . . . All this
mysterious life troubled him, absorbed him. . . .
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