French fiction -- 20th century -- Translations into English
Annette could not reply at first; she did not want to understand. What
had he said? No, it wasn't possible! And then a blush spread over her
forehead. Sitting there, with her hands motionless over her work, she
did not stir. Nor did he make any further movement. He was not very
proud of what he had said, of what was about to happen. The silence
continued a long time. A flood of anger rose in Annette's vehement
heart. She let it pass. Pity, irony, took its place. She sighed
contemptuously. "Little wretch!" she thought. And at last, as her
fingers resumed their task, she said, "And no doubt you consider that a
woman without a husband who works to support her child is less worthy of
respect?"
Marc lost his poise. He did not reply. He did not excuse himself. He was
mortified.
That night Annette did not sleep. So she had sacrificed herself in vain!
That the world should blame her was in the order of things. But he to
whom she had given everything! How had he known? Who had breathed this
thought into his ear? She could not be angry with him, but she was
overwhelmed.
Marc slept peacefully. He was not free from remorse, but the sleep was
stronger than the remorse. After a good night he would have forgotten it
if he had not encountered it again in his mother's anxious look. It
annoyed him that his mother had not forgotten as he had. He was sorry,
but he could not make up his mind to say so; and, since he was
uncomfortable, his childish logic made him angry with his mother.
They did not allude to the scene. But after it things were no longer as
they had been before. They were constrained when they kissed each other.
Annette no longer treated him wholly as a child.
How had he known? Conversations at school had made him reflect on the
name he bore, which was that of his mother. Old allusions, picked up as
they had passed in old days in the workshop, which he had not
understood, became clear now. Some imprudent words of Sylvie to her
sister, in the child's presence. And the enigma this mother was for him,
at once irritating and fascinating him, through the aura of passions
which, without the power to discern them, his puppy-instinct had
scented. Over it all he had built a strange, vague fairy-tale which did
not hang together very closely. His birth puzzled him. How could he find
out about it? The reply that hurt his mother was partly a trap he was
setting for her. In his heart there was a mingled curiosity and
bitterness in regard to what had happened, about which he knew nothing.
He had never dared to question Sylvie on the subject, for he was proud
on his mother's behalf and he suspected that she had been wronged. But
he thought he had the right to be angry with her because of the
important secret she was hiding from him. This secret stood like a
stranger between herself and him.
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