French fiction -- 20th century -- Translations into English
Mid-November. . . . Sitting by the window, sewing, she looked out at the
new-fallen snow over the fields and the white-capped trees. But her eyes
returned to a wedding announcement. . . . The marriage of Roger Brissot
to a young girl of the political world in Paris. (Annette knew
her.) . . . Roger had lost no time. The Brissot ladies, angered by
Annette's flight, had hastened to bring about another wedding before people
should begin to gossip about their son's discomfiture, and Roger, in his
resentment, had accepted their choice. Annette could feel no surprise,
nor could she complain. She forced herself to think that she was glad
for poor Roger's sake. But the news disturbed her more than she would
have wished. So many memories quivered in her soul and her flesh! And
there, in that flesh, was the life brought into being by him. . . . In
the depths of the shadow, the agitations of those former days were
stirring. . . . No, no, Annette would not allow them to come out into
the open! She felt an aversion for those fevers of the past. Everything
that was sensual wearied her. Disgust, revolt. And that animosity. (She
acknowledged it now.) The echo of the ancestral hatred of the female for
the male who has fertilized her.
She sewed; she sewed; she wanted to forget. Often when she was nervous
and saw a dangerous cloud gathering on the horizon, she had recourse to
the prayer-wheel of work. She sewed, and her thoughts slipped back into
their proper order.
So they slipped back to-day. After half an hour of silent application,
her anxiety had passed, her smile had reappeared. As Annette lifted the
forehead that was bent over her work, her eyes were peaceful and she
said, "So be it!"
The sun laughed over the snow. Annette left her work and dressed to go
out. Her ankles and her feet were a little swollen and she had to force
herself to walk; but once she was outside she found that she enjoyed it.
For her little companion was with her as she strolled along. He was
making his presence known now. In the evening especially he measured the
dimensions of his nest; he groped about in all directions.
"Heavens, how narrow this is!" he seemed to say. "Is it never going to
end?"
Then he went to sleep again. By day, when she was out walking, he was
well-behaved. But he seemed to be looking out through his mother's eyes,
for to these eyes everything appeared to be new. What fresh colors!
Nature had just placed them on the canvas. Annette's cheeks too had a
beautiful color. Her heart beat more vigorously and her blood ran. She
enjoyed every odor, every taste; when nobody was looking she would eat a
little snow by the roadside. Delicious! She remembered that as a child
she had done the same thing when her nurse's back was turned. And she
sucked the stems of the damp, frozen reeds. She had a shiver of
epicurean delight down the whole length of her throat; as the snowflakes
melted on her tongue, she too melted with the luxurious pleasure of it.
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