She was gazing at me, not saying a word. I went on: “I’d never have
thought it possible for anyone to be in your position and be real and
straight and human, but I realise that you have managed to work that
miracle. So I want to love you and help you, in every way I know how.
But you must understand, I can’t ask for your confidence, as I could for
any other woman’s. There is too much vulgar curiosity about the rich and
great, and I can’t pretend to be unaware of that hatefulness; I can’t
help shrinking from it. So all I can say is--if you need me, if you ever
need a real friend, why, here I am; you may be sure I understand, and
won’t tell your secrets to anyone else.”
With a little mist of tears in her eyes, Sylvia put out her hand and
touched mine. And so we went into a chamber alone together, and shut the
cold and suspicious world outside.
20. We knew each other well enough now to discuss the topic which has
been the favourite of women since we sat in the doorways of caves and
pounded wild grain in stone mortars--the question of our lords, who had
gone hunting, and who might be pleased to beat us on their return.
I learned all that Sylvia had been taught on the subject of the male
animal; I opened that amazing unwritten volume of woman traditions, the
maxims of Lady Dee Lysle.
Sylvia’s maternal great-aunt had been a great lady out of a great
age, and incidentally a grim and grizzled veteran of the sex-war. Her
philosophy started from a recognition of the physical and economic
inferiority of woman, as complete as any window-smashing suffragette
could have formulated, but her remedy for it was a purely individualist
one, the leisure-class woman’s skill in trading upon her sex. Lady Dee
did not use that word, of course--she would as soon have talked of her
esophagus. Her formula was “charm,” and she had taught Sylvia that the
preservation of “charm” was the end of woman’s existence, the thing by
which she remained a lady, and without which she was more contemptible
than the beasts.
She had taught this, not merely by example and casual anecdote, but by
precepts as solemnly expounded as bible-texts. “Remember, my dear, a
woman with a husband is like a lion-tamer with a whip!” And the old lady
would explain what a hard and dangerous life was lived by lion-tamers,
how their safety depended upon life-long distrustfulness of the
creatures over whom they ruled. She would tell stories of the rending
and maiming of luckless ones, who had forgotten for a brief moment the
nature of the male animal! “Yes, my dear,” she would say, “believe
in love; but let the man believe first!” Her maxims never sinned by
verbosity.
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