John stood amazed; then he shook the bottle, and, to his further wonder,
found it partly empty. Three or four glasses were gone. Alan must have
uncorked a bottle of whisky and drank three or four glasses one after the
other, without sitting down, for there was no chair, and that in his own
cold lobby on this freezing night! It fully explained his
eccentricities, John reflected sagely, as he mixed himself a grog. Poor
Alan! He was drunk; and what a dreadful thing was drink, and what a
slave to it poor Alan was, to drink in this unsociable, uncomfortable
fashion! The man who would drink alone, except for health’s sake—as John
was now doing—was a man utterly lost. He took the grog out, and felt
hazier, but warmer. It was hard work opening the portmanteau and finding
his night things; and before he was undressed, the cold had struck home
to him once more. ‘Well,’ said he; ‘just a drop more. There’s no sense
in getting ill with all this other trouble.’ And presently dreamless
slumber buried him.
When John awoke it was day. The low winter sun was already in the
heavens, but his watch had stopped, and it was impossible to tell the
hour exactly. Ten, he guessed it, and made haste to dress, dismal
reflections crowding on his mind. But it was less from terror than from
regret that he now suffered; and with his regret there were mingled
cutting pangs of penitence. There had fallen upon him a blow, cruel,
indeed, but yet only the punishment of old misdoing; and he had rebelled
and plunged into fresh sin. The rod had been used to chasten, and he had
bit the chastening fingers. His father was right; John had justified
him; John was no guest for decent people’s houses, and no fit associate
for decent people’s children. And had a broader hint been needed, there
was the case of his old friend. John was no drunkard, though he could at
times exceed; and the picture of Houston drinking neat spirits at his
hall-table struck him with something like disgust. He hung back from
meeting his old friend. He could have wished he had not come to him; and
yet, even now, where else was he to turn?
These musings occupied him while he dressed, and accompanied him into the
lobby of the house. The door stood open on the garden; doubtless, Alan
had stepped forth; and John did as he supposed his friend had done. The
ground was hard as iron, the frost still rigorous; as he brushed among
the hollies, icicles jingled and glittered in their fall; and wherever he
went, a volley of eager sparrows followed him. Here were Christmas
weather and Christmas morning duly met, to the delight of children. This
was the day of reunited families, the day to which he had so long looked
forward, thinking to awake in his own bed in Randolph Crescent,
reconciled with all men and repeating the footprints of his youth; and
here he was alone, pacing the alleys of a wintry garden and filled with
penitential thoughts.
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