And the great baby plumped upon his knees, and did as he was bid; and
none the worse for that! But while he was heartily enough requesting
forgiveness on general principles, the rational side of him
distinguished, and wondered if, perhaps, the apology were not due upon
the other part. And when he rose again from that becoming exercise, he
first eyed the face of his old love doubtfully, and then, taking heart,
uttered his protest.
‘I must say, Flora,’ said he, ‘in all this business, I can see very
little fault of mine.’
‘If you had written home,’ replied the lady, ‘there would have been none
of it. If you had even gone to Murrayfield reasonably sober, you would
never have slept there, and the worst would not have happened. Besides,
the whole thing began years ago. You got into trouble, and when your
father, honest man, was disappointed, you took the pet, or got afraid,
and ran away from punishment. Well, you’ve had your own way of it, John,
and I don’t suppose you like it.’
‘I sometimes fancy I’m not much better than a fool,’ sighed John.
‘My dear John,’ said she, ‘not much!’
He looked at her, and his eye fell. A certain anger rose within him;
here was a Flora he disowned; she was hard; she was of a set colour; a
settled, mature, undecorative manner; plain of speech, plain of habit—he
had come near saying, plain of face. And this changeling called herself
by the same name as the many-coloured, clinging maid of yore; she of the
frequent laughter, and the many sighs, and the kind, stolen glances. And
to make all worse, she took the upper hand with him, which (as John well
knew) was not the true relation of the sexes. He steeled his heart
against this sick-nurse.
‘And how do you come to be here?’ he asked.
She told him how she had nursed her father in his long illness, and when
he died, and she was left alone, had taken to nurse others, partly from
habit, partly to be of some service in the world; partly, it might be,
for amusement. ‘There’s no accounting for taste,’ said she. And she
told him how she went largely to the houses of old friends, as the need
arose; and how she was thus doubly welcome as an old friend first, and
then as an experienced nurse, to whom doctors would confide the gravest
cases.
‘And, indeed, it’s a mere farce my being here for poor Maria,’ she
continued; ‘but your father takes her ailments to heart, and I cannot
always be refusing him. We are great friends, your father and I; he was
very kind to me long ago—ten years ago.
A strange stir came in John’s heart. All this while had he been thinking
only of himself? All this while, why had he not written to Flora? In
penitential tenderness, he took her hand, and, to his awe and trouble, it
remained in his, compliant. A voice told him this was Flora, after
all—told him so quietly, yet with a thrill of singing.
‘And you never married?’ said he.
‘No, John; I never married,’ she replied.
The hall clock striking two recalled them to the sense of time.
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