“Then yours would be double age, doubly desolate, and doubly useless.
What retrospect would you have, what happiness to look back upon? Ah,
Marguerite, there are cruel necessities in this life, against which we
must fight, if we would not be dashed to death against them. You and my
son have different roads in life; chance has thrown you together for a
little while, but reason must separate you. In the life you have
entered, you saw not the end, and to your three months’ happiness no
more can be added. Keep the remembrance of this time, and let it
strengthen you always. I speak harshly, but consider that I plead where
I might command. It is a man of the world who speaks to you, a father
who implores you. So, Marguerite, courage, and show you love my son
truly, by leaving him to the care of those who have a family claim upon
his obedience.”
“So--she who falls shall never rise.” (She was speaking lowly to
herself.) “Heaven may pardon me, the world never. And truly, what right
have I to a place in this honest family? I love! What reason! And what
proofs can I give of this love? Who would believe them? What, poor
girl--thou to speak of heart, and future--these are new words to thee.
Look back on thy past, what man would call thee wife? What child would
call thee mother?”
Then turning to her visitor, she said: “Nearly all you have said I have
half asked myself--oh, how often, but never, never wholly. You are
right, you speak kindly, and you are very merciful. Ah well, I will obey
you, and one day you will say to the pure honest girl, your
daughter--once there lived a poor erring woman who had but one hope in
the world, and at the invocation of _thy_ name, this erring woman
renounced that hope, laid her hands heavily upon her breast, and so
died; for I shall die, I shall die. You say, ‘poor creature,’ you pity
me, sir, and methinks you even weep. Ah well, I tell you I will obey
you; command me.”
“Tell him that you love him no more.”
“He would not believe me.”
“Leave this place.”
“He would follow me. You hesitate? Sir, lay your hand upon my head as
you would upon your daughter’s head. And now I promise you that in eight
days he shall be with you, unhappy perhaps, but wholly cured, and I
promise you that he shall know nothing of this visit; oh, fear nothing,
he shall HATE me.”
Yet a little and the father was leaving the room. “And,” she murmured,
“when all is ended, and I am dead, I pray you tell him how I loved, and
proved my love. Good bye; we shall, perhaps, never see each other more.
I pray you may be happy.”
Left to herself, she sat down, miserably, and wrote a letter which was
to destroy his love for her. But it was still unfinished when he
arrived. She hid the paper, and trembled.
After a time she walked quickly from the room, saying she should soon
return.
* * * * *
And she was gone to return no more.
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