I will not dwell on the scene that ensued. Bianca rejoiced in the
reverse of my situation, because she saw it lightened my heart of
a load of care; for her own part she had loved me for myself, and
had never doubted that my own merits would command both fame and
fortune.
I now felt all my native pride buoyant within me; I no longer
walked with my eyes bent to the dust; hope elevated them to the
skies; my soul was lit up with fresh fires, and beamed from my
countenance.
I wished to impart the change in my circumstances to the Count;
to let him know who and what I was, and to make formal proposals
for the hand of Bianca; but the Count was absent on a distant
estate. I opened my whole soul to Filippo. Now first I told him
of my passion; of the doubts and fears that had distracted me,
and of the tidings that had suddenly dispelled them. He
overwhelmed me with congratulations and with the warmest
expressions of sympathy. I embraced him in the fullness of my
heart. I felt compunctious for having suspected him of coldness,
and asked him forgiveness for having ever doubted his friendship.
Nothing is so warm, and enthusiastic as a sudden expansion of the
heart between young men. Filippo entered into our concerns with
the most eager interest. He was our confidant and counsellor. It
was determined that I should hasten at once to Naples to
re-establish myself in my father’s affections and my paternal
home, and the moment the reconciliation was effected and my
father’s consent insured, I should return and demand Bianca of
the Count. Filippo engaged to secure his father’s acquiescence;
indeed, he undertook to watch over our interests, and was the
channel through which we were to correspond.
My parting with Bianca was tender—delicious—agonizing.
It was in a little pavilion of the garden which had been one of
our favorite resorts. How often and often did I return to have
one more adieu—to have her look once more on me in speechless
emotion—to enjoy once more the rapturous sight of those tears
streaming down her lovely cheeks—to seize once more on that
delicate hand, the frankly accorded pledge of love, and cover it
with tears and kisses! Heavens! There is a delight even in the
parting agony of two lovers worth a thousand tame pleasures of
the world. I have her at this moment before my eyes—at the window
of the pavilion, putting aside the vines that clustered about the
casement—her light form beaming forth in virgin white—her
countenance all tears and smiles—sending a thousand and a
thousand adieus after me, as, hesitating, in a delirium of
fondness and agitation, I faltered my way down the avenue.
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