“Think of all the _collages_, marriages, and _liaisons_ that you know, in
which some frowsy or foolish or doll-like or log-like bitch accompanies
the form of an otherwise sensible man: a dumbfounding, disgusting, and
septic ghost!
“How foul and wrong this haunting of women is!—They are
everywhere!—Confusing, blurring, libelling, with their half-baked,
gushing, tawdry presences! It is like a slop of children and the bawling
machinery of the inside of life, always and all over our palaces. Their
silly food of cheap illusion comes in between friendships, stagnates
complacently around a softened mind.
“I might almost take some credit to myself for at least having the grace
to keep this bear-garden in the background.”
Hobson had brightened up while this was proceeding.—He now said:
“You might almost.—Why don’t you? I admire what you tell me. But you
appear to take your German foibles too much to heart.”
“Just at present I am engaged in a gala of the heart. You may have
noticed that.—I am not a strict landlord with the various personalities
gathered beneath my roof.—In the present case I am really blessed. But
you should see the sluts that get in sometimes! They all become steadily
my fiancée too.—Fiancée! Observe how one apes the forms of conventional
life. It does not mean anything, so one lets it stop. Its the same with
the café fools I have for friends—there’s a Greek fool, a German fool, a
Russian fool,—an English fool!—There are no ‘friends’ in this life any
more than there are ‘fiancées.’ So it doesn’t matter. You drift on side
by side with this live stock—friends, fiancées, ‘colleagues,’ and what
not.”
Hobson sat staring with a bemused seriousness at the ground.
“Why should I not speak plainly and cruelly of my poor, ridiculous
fiancée to you or any one?—After all, it is chiefly myself I am
castigating.—But you, too, must be of the party! The right to _see_
implies the right to be _seen_. As an offset for your prying, scurvy way
of peeping into my affairs you must offer your own guts, such as they
are⸺!”
“How have I pried into your affairs?” Hobson asked with a circumspect
surprise.
“Any one who _stands outside_, who hides himself in a deliquescent
aloofness, is a sneak and a spy⸺”
“That seems to me to be a case of smut calling the kettle black. I should
not have said that you were conspicuous⸺”
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