“Why kiss you, Sorbet?” she managed to say before her lips were closed.
He drew her ungraciously and roughly into his arms, and started kissing
her on the mouth. She covered him, docilely, with her inertia. He was
supposed to be performing a miracle of bringing the dead to life. Gone
about too crudely, the willing mountebank, Death, had been offended.
It is not thus that great spirits are prevailed upon to flee. Her
“indifference”—the great, simulated, and traditional—would not be ousted
by an upstart and younger relative. By Tarr himself, grown repentant,
yes. But not by another “indifference.” Then his brutality stung her
offended spirit, that had been pursing itself up for so many hours. Tears
began rolling tranquilly out of her eyes in large dignified drops. They
had not been very far back in the wings. He received them frigidly. She
was sure, thought he, to detect something unusual during this scene.
Then with the woman’s bustling, desperate, possessive fury, she suddenly
woke up. She disengaged her arms wildly and threw them round his neck,
tears becoming torrential. Underneath the poor comedian that played such
antics with such phlegmatic and exasperating persistence, this distressed
being thrust up its trembling mask, like a drowning rat. Its finer head
pierced her blunter wedge.
“Oh! dis, Sorbet! Est-ce que tu m’aime? M’aime-tu? Dis!”
“Yes, you know. Don’t cry.”
A wail, like the buzzing on a comb covered with paper followed.
“Oh, dis; m’aimes-tu? Dis que tu m’aime!”
A blurting, hurrying personality rushed right up into his face. It was
like the sightless clammy charging of a bat. More eloquent regions
had ambushed him. Humbug had mysteriously departed. It was a blast of
knifelike air in the middle of their hot-house. He stared at her face
groping up as though it scented troubles in his face. It pushed to right
and then to left and rocked itself. Intelligent and aware, it lost this
intensity.
A complicated image developed in his mind as he stood with her. He was
remembering Schopenhauer. It was of a Chinese puzzle of boxes within
boxes, or of insects’ discarded envelopes. A woman had in the middle of
her a kernel, a sort of very substantial astral baby. This baby was apt
to swell. She then became _all_ baby. The husk he held was a painted
mummy-case. He was a mummy-case too. Only he contained nothing but
innumerable other painted cases inside, smaller and smaller ones. The
smallest was not a substantial astral baby, however, or live core, but a
painting like the rest. His kernel was a painting. That was as it should
be!
He was half sitting on the table. He found himself patting her back. He
stopped doing this. His face looked heavy and fatigued. A dull, intense
infection of her despair had filled it.
He held her head gently against his neck. Or he held her skull against
his neck. She shook and sniffed softly.
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