Bernard, awakened by the sound of their voices, had put on a
dressing-gown and was waiting for them in the drawing-room. Thérèse was
wrong to banish the memory of that scene that broke out between brother
and sister. This man, who could seize a poor worn-out child so roughly
by the wrists, drag her up to a room on the second floor, and bolt the
door, is your husband, Thérèse: that Bernard, who, in two hours’ time,
will be your judge. The spirit of the family inspired him, and not for
one instant did he waver. He always knew, in every sort of situation,
what was due to the family. You, in the agony of your remorse, Thérèse,
are preparing a long appeal: but only men with no principles can
listen to a reason that is not their own. Bernard will laugh at your
arguments: “I know what I have to do.” He always knows what he has to
do. If he sometimes hesitates, he says: “The family have discussed it
and we have decided that....” How can you doubt that he has prepared
his sentence: Your destiny is fixed for ever: you may as well go to
sleep.
CHAPTER VIII
After the La Traves had brought Anne back, defeated, to Saint Clair
Thérèse had not left Argelouse until just before her baby was born. She
knew the silence of the place only too well during those interminable
November nights. A letter addressed to Jean Azévédo had remained
unanswered. He doubtless considered that this country-bred creature
was not worth the trouble of a correspondence. In the first place,
a pregnant woman is never an agreeable recollection. Perhaps, at a
distance, this foolish fellow, who would have been captivated by poses
and sham complications, thought her dull. But what could he understand
of that deceptive simplicity of mind, that frank expression, those bold
unhesitating gestures? In point of fact, he believed her capable, like
little Anne, of taking him at his word, and leaving everything for his
sake. Jean Azévédo mistrusted women who surrendered too soon to give
the assailant time to raise the siege. Nothing dismayed him so much
as victory, and the fruits of victory. Yet Thérèse made an effort to
live in this young man’s world: but some books which Jean admired, and
which she had got from Bordeaux, she could not understand. How empty
her life was! She was not to be asked to work at baby-linen: “That was
not her business,” Madame de la Trave used to say. Many women die in
childbirth in the country. Thérèse made Aunt Clara cry by assuring her
that she would end like her mother, that she was certain she would not
escape. She did not fail to add that she was content to die: which was
untrue! She had never longed so ardently to live: nor had Bernard ever
displayed so much solicitude for her. “He was not concerned about me,
but about what I carried within me. He used to say, in his dreadful
accent: ‘Have some more soup ... don’t eat any fish ... you have
walked enough to-day....’ I did not care: I was no more touched than a
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