Death -- Fiction; Forgiveness -- Fiction; Memory -- Fiction
These things made their whole relation so impersonal that they hadn’t the
rules or reasons people found in ordinary friendships. They didn’t care
for the things it was supposed necessary to care for in the intercourse
of the world. They ended one day—they never knew which of them expressed
it first—by throwing out the idea that they didn’t care for each other.
Over this idea they grew quite intimate; they rallied to it in a way that
marked a fresh start in their confidence. If to feel deeply together
about certain things wholly distinct from themselves didn’t constitute a
safety, where was safety to be looked for? Not lightly nor often, not
without occasion nor without emotion, any more than in any other
reference by serious people to a mystery of their faith; but when
something had happened to warm, as it were, the air for it, they came as
near as they could come to calling their Dead by name. They felt it was
coming very near to utter their thought at all. The word “they”
expressed enough; it limited the mention, it had a dignity of its own,
and if, in their talk, you had heard our friends use it, you might have
taken them for a pair of pagans of old alluding decently to the
domesticated gods. They never knew—at least Stransom never knew—how they
had learned to be sure about each other. If it had been with each a
question of what the other was there for, the certitude had come in some
fine way of its own. Any faith, after all, has the instinct of
propagation, and it was as natural as it was beautiful that they should
have taken pleasure on the spot in the imagination of a following. If
the following was for each but a following of one it had proved in the
event sufficient. Her debt, however, of course was much greater than
his, because while she had only given him a worshipper he had given her a
splendid temple. Once she said she pitied him for the length of his
list—she had counted his candles almost as often as himself—and this made
him wonder what could have been the length of hers. He had wondered
before at the coincidence of their losses, especially as from time to
time a new candle was set up. On some occasion some accident led him to
express this curiosity, and she answered as if in surprise that he hadn’t
already understood. “Oh for me, you know, the more there are the
better—there could never be too many. I should like hundreds and
hundreds—I should like thousands; I should like a great mountain of
light.”
Then of course in a flash he understood. “Your Dead are only One?”
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