I had exchanged a glance with Mark in which it’s possible he read that my
pity for him was untinged with contempt, though I scarce know why he
should have cared; and as his sister soon afterward got up and took her
bedroom candlestick he proposed we should go back to his study. We sat
there till after midnight; he put himself into his slippers and an old
velvet jacket, he lighted an ancient pipe, but he talked considerably
less than before. There were longish pauses in our communion, but they
only made me feel we had advanced in intimacy. They helped me further to
understand my friend’s personal situation and to imagine it by no means
the happiest possible. When his face was quiet it was vaguely troubled,
showing, to my increase of interest—if that was all that was wanted!—that
for him too life was the same struggle it had been for so many another
man of genius. At last I prepared to leave him, and then, to my
ineffable joy, he gave me some of the sheets of his forthcoming
book—which, though unfinished, he had indulged in the luxury, so dear to
writers of deliberation, of having “set up,” from chapter to chapter, as
he advanced. These early pages, the _prémices_, in the language of
letters, of that new fruit of his imagination, I should take to my room
and look over at my leisure. I was in the act of leaving him when the
door of the study noiselessly opened and Mrs. Ambient stood before us.
She observed us a moment, her candle in her hand, and then said to her
husband that as she supposed he hadn’t gone to bed she had come down to
let him know Dolcino was more quiet and would probably be better in the
morning. Mark Ambient made no reply; he simply slipped past her in the
doorway, as if for fear she might seize him in his passage, and bounded
upstairs to judge for himself of his child’s condition. She looked so
frankly discomfited that I for a moment believed her about to give him
chase. But she resigned herself with a sigh and her eyes turned,
ruefully and without a ray, to the lamplit room where various books at
which I had been looking were pulled out of their places on the shelves
and the fumes of tobacco hung in mid-air. I bade her good-night and
then, without intention, by a kind of fatality, a perversity that had
already made me address her overmuch on that question of her husband’s
powers, I alluded to the precious proof-sheets with which Ambient had
entrusted me and which I nursed there under my arm. “They’re the opening
chapters of his new book,” I said. “Fancy my satisfaction at being
allowed to carry them to my room!”
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