“Good ones—certainly not!” said my companion. I suppose I had had other
views, for I remember saying that for myself I wasn’t sure it was bad for
them if the novels were “good” to the right intensity of goodness. “Bad
for _them_, I don’t say so much!” my companion returned. “But very bad,
I’m afraid, for the poor dear old novel itself.” That oblique accidental
allusion to his wife’s attitude was followed by a greater breadth of
reference as we walked home. “The difference between us is simply the
opposition between two distinct ways of looking at the world, which have
never succeeded in getting on together, or in making any kind of common
household, since the beginning of time. They’ve borne all sorts of
names, and my wife would tell you it’s the difference between Christian
and Pagan. I may be a pagan, but I don’t like the name; it sounds
sectarian. She thinks me at any rate no better than an ancient Greek.
It’s the difference between making the most of life and making the least,
so that you’ll get another better one in some other time and place. Will
it be a sin to make the most of that one, too, I wonder; and shall we
have to be bribed off in the future state as well as in the present?
Perhaps I care too much for beauty—I don’t know, I doubt if a poor devil
_can_; I delight in it, I adore it, I think of it continually, I try to
produce it, to reproduce it. My wife holds that we shouldn’t cultivate
or enjoy it without extraordinary precautions and reserves. She’s always
afraid of it, always on her guard. I don’t know what it can ever have
done to her, what grudge it owes her or what resentment rides. And she’s
so pretty, too, herself! Don’t you think she’s lovely? She was at any
rate when we married. At that time I wasn’t aware of that difference I
speak of—I thought it all came to the same thing: in the end, as they
say. Well, perhaps it will in the end. I don’t know what the end will
be. Moreover, I care for seeing things as they are; that’s the way I try
to show them in any professed picture. But you mustn’t talk to Mrs.
Ambient about things as they are. She has a mortal dread of things as
they are.”
“She’s afraid of them for Dolcino,” I said: surprised a moment afterwards
at being in a position—thanks to Miss Ambient—to be so explanatory; and
surprised even now that Mark shouldn’t have shown visibly that he
wondered what the deuce I knew about it. But he didn’t; he simply
declared with a tenderness that touched me: “Ah nothing shall ever hurt
_him_!”
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