Elizabeth, overcome, was the first to make up her mind, as they were
walking along the plane tree avenue, lightly crushing the dead leaves.
"Mother, do you know where _he_ is now?"
Trembling with emotion, Albert's mother answered quickly:
"He does not write to me very often, and not at length. He is
traveling."
"In which country?"
"His last letter was dated from Iran in Spain."
She added, as Elizabeth asked no further:
"It is on the other side of the Pyrenees, but quite near the frontier."
This poor sentence fell like one of those heavy autumn leaves, which the
slightest breeze carries off. And that was all. The opportunity they had
so long awaited had passed.
That evening Elizabeth did not go to bed until very late. She came back
into the drawing-room after her mother-in-law had gone, and tried to
read a book to cool her fever. To concentrate her attention, she put her
hands on either side of her face. Half an hour passed and she had not
turned one page. She was still reading the same words--
"He is traveling--he is traveling."
She recalled the uncommon trips on which she had accompanied her husband
to Germany, Munich and Nuremberg, to Touraine, to the castles on the
bank of the Loire. The departure was to Albert an exuberant happiness, a
"joy of conquest" he called it:--he was going to take possession of new
countries. In the picture-galleries, as he stood before a landscape rich
in historical association, he would grow enthusiastic, explain, comment,
make comparisons that she did not even try to grasp. Little by little
this good humor changed--he became distrait, absorbed in himself, and
ceased to tell her his impressions. And their return was silent and
unresponsive. Why?
Why? She had never inquired. Dull and passive, she asked herself very
few questions, and did not try to live her own life, or even Albert's
with him. What companionship did she give him? As soon as she began to
question herself thus, a quantity of small forgotten details came back
to her mind.--How much luggage she had always needed! And what
importance she had attached to the thousand inconveniences which no
traveler avoids! She needed so many things, she complained of
everything, as if Albert could keep the trains from smoking, the rain
from falling, the sun from overheating, the hotel kitchen from smelling,
the tradesmen from stealing, the women from wearing big hats in the
theaters, and fatigue from coming. The worst of all was that she had no
curiosity. Curiosity is an incentive which lessens the annoyances of the
trip for the sake of the pleasures which are before us. "Nothing
interests you," he had said one day with a forced laugh. She now
understood the mistake she had made in giving the same value to the
petty necessities of life as to serious, vital, new experiences. But
most women make this mistake, and that was one excuse. Of what use was
an excuse with a husband like Albert who had so often offered to guide
her?
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