Out of society, because of her mourning and her sorrow, she did not care
to receive anyone, except her friend Blanche Vernier, whose discreet
devotion was restful, but without influence, and whose four children
were in themselves quite a company for play and study. She had even been
obliged to reject the attentions of M. de Vimelle who had suddenly begun
to take her under his protection. Wearied by the vulgarity of his
mistress and the thankless rôle that she made him fill he had thought
of taking an honorable revenge by paying attention to a woman whom
nobody defended. His natural vanity gave him erroneous ideas of his own
value. Defeated by Elizabeth he fell back on the mature, lively and more
accommodating Mme. Passerat, the conquest of whom would be attended with
more publicity. He avenged himself for his setback by reporting to
society the infrequent visits of Philippe Lagier to the Rue Haxo. Mme.
Molay-Norrois, told by her husband, warned her daughter of this.
Elizabeth was indignant. Upon introspection, however, she found she
might reproach herself. It was true, these visits of Philippe were more
pleasant to her than she had admitted to herself. He came in shyly,
afraid of not being received, and began by talking commonplaces. Shyness
in a man of his worth and self-possession is in itself a homage. Then he
changed his tone, and spoke with all his wit which was quick and
pointed, and which, under the influence of a new tenderness, opened out
and became more scintillating. What he said--apart from the lasting
pleasure which his words gave, and which helped to make her forget the
limitations of her life,--revealed a silent adoration that could never
again be directly expressed. In that sort of mystic exaltation which
comes with a love that is repressed, he cleverly managed to encourage in
her a hope, which all reason and his soul denied.
As a self-imposed task, he wrote very regularly to his friend. At first
Albert had sent only hasty replies; but little by little he acquired the
habit of confidence. His bitter critical letters did not breathe
happiness, and now he began to ask for news of his children. Thus the
tie broken by the death of Mme. Derize was cleverly mended by Philippe
Lagier's sincere friendship. Elizabeth, in the selfishness of her love,
was not conscious that she had made such use of this friendship. Yet
after rebelling against her mother's warning, she was guided by it.
Besides actual honesty, there is an honesty of appearances of which
women of to-day think very little. Above all, she had not the right to
take advantage of a sentiment, which, however respectful, had its origin
in a generous devotion, and in which she took a certain pride, owing to
her deserted state--so harmful to a woman in her prime.
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