He waited now frightened, now fuming. Still she did not come. Should he
not wait--should he go--if this was her room? But he had come so far,
and he needed her so--he must stay. For some dear, foolish woman's
reason she must have lent her room for the use of a feminine busy-body;
a political, higher-thought, pseudo-spiritualistic friend. (He must
weed out her friends!) The trend of the work done in this room now his
quick mind had seized upon--titles of books, papers, it was enough.
Notices stuck in the Venetian Mirror (the desecration!) for meetings of
this and that society, and all of them, so he judged, just excuses for
putting unwanted fingers into unwanted, dangerous pies. He thought of
it like that--he could not help it; he saw too far into motive and
internal action; was too impatient of the little storms, the paltry,
tea-cup things. She, with her unique gift of serenity--her place was
not among the busybodies grinding axes that were better blunt;
interfering with the slow, slow working of the Mills of God. Her gift
was example--rare and delicate; her light the silver light of a soul,
that through 'suffering and patience and contemplation, knows itself
and is unafraid.
For such fussing, unstable work as it was used for now she ought not
even to have lent her room--the room he had looked on as a temple of
quietness; the shrine of a priceless temperament.
He smiled his first smile--she should not lend it again.
Then the door opened. Suddenly, almost noisily, she came in.
She had heard, downstairs, his name. So far she was prepared with her
greeting. She came with hands out-stretched--he took her hands and
dropped them.
When he could interrupt her greeting he said--forcing the words--"So
now you are quite strong--and busy?"
She told him how busy. She told him how, (but not why) she had awakened
from her long, selfish dream. She said she had found so late--but
surely not too late?--the joy of action; constant, unremitting work for
the world's sake. _"Do you remember how you used to complain you
couldn't sit still? I am like that now--"_
And he listened, listened, each word a deeper stab straight at his
defenceless heart.
Of all the many things he had done since they met he had nothing to
say.
Having just let her talk (how she talked!) as soon as he decently could
he went. Of all he had come to tell her he said not a word. Tired, so
bitterly tired, he had come seeking rest, and now there was no more a
place of rest for him--anywhere.
Yes, he had come across the world to find himself overdue; to find
himself too late. He went out again--as soon as he decently
could--taking only a picture of her that in sixty over-charged minutes
had wiped out the treasured picture of years.
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