Sixty minutes! After waiting for years she had kept him an hour,
desperately, by sheer force of will keeping a man too stunned at first
to resist, to break free. (Then at last he broke free of that room and
that woman, and went!) For years he had pictured her sitting still as
no other woman sat still, tranquil and graceful, her hair going a
little grey above her clear, pale skin, her eyes of a dream-ridden
saint. And now he must picture her forced into life, vivaciously,
restlessly eager; full of plans, (futile plans, how he knew those
plans!) for the world's upheaval, adding unrest to unrest. And now he
must picture her with the grey hair outwitted by art, with paint on her
beautiful ravaged face.
At first he had wanted to take her in his arms; with his strength to
still her, with his tears to wash the paint off.
But he couldn't--he couldn't. He knew that his had been a dream of such
supreme sweetness that to awaken was an agony he could never hide; knew
that you can't re-enter dreamland once you wake.
So he went.
He never knew, with the door shut on him, how she fell on her sofa--her
vivacity quenched, her soul spent. He never knew that having failed,
(as she thought) to draw him to her with what she was, she had vainly,
foolishly tried a new model--himself.
He did not know how inartistic love can be when love is desperate.
MAJOR WILBRAHAM
By HUGH WALPOLE
(From _The Chicago Tribune_)
1921
I am quite aware that in giving you this story just as I was told it I
shall incur the charge of downright and deliberate lying.
Especially I shall be told this by any one who knew Wilbraham
personally. Wilbraham was not, of course, his real name, but I think
that there are certain people who will recognize him from this
description of him. I do not know that it matters very much if they do.
Wilbraham himself would certainly not mind did he know. (Does he know?)
It was the thing above all that he wanted those last hours before he
died--that I should pass on my conviction of the truth of what he told
me to others. What he did not know was that I was not convinced. How
could I be? But when the whole comfort of his last hours hung on the
simple fact that I was, of course I pretended to the best of my poor
ability. I would have done more than that to make him happy.
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