American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
The food came, and Victor Budge served it. “I’m a realist,” he said.
“When I’m hungry, I know it. I don’t pretend that I like olives because
they remind me of the Mediterranean: grub is grub—you need it, and
you’ve got to have it. And if you take life simply and realistically,
it’s not hard to get all you want of it. What’s the use of starving in a
garret? You and I know what life is like, and that it’s a pretty good
old game if you play it like everybody else does. Be like other folks!
Why should an artist feel that he has to be so damn refined and
superior? What’s good enough for ordinary people is good enough for me.
I don’t believe in this artistic belly-aching-around about how coarse
and vulgar life is. Take things as you find ’em, and don’t bawl for the
moon. That’s what I say.”
In spite of the way Victor Budge put this philosophy—its boisterousness
somehow smacked of an inner lack of conviction, as though he were
arguing to convince himself—yet there seemed to be sound sense in it.
That, after all, was what Felix himself was trying to do—be like other
people.... Yes, Victor Budge was right.
“Have some more red ink? Plenty more in George’s cellar.—And girls, for
instance. Now I don’t have any use at all for this—this eternal
poetizing about them! What’s a girl, after all? The same kind of critter
we are! I don’t find ’em mysterious—and I don’t go ’round grouching
about ’em, either. Girls and me have always got along perfectly well.
Because I don’t expect them to be something else than what they
are—Helen of Troy and the Blessed Damozel and all that sort of rot. I
don’t go up to them asking, ‘Are you my long-lost ideal?’ They don’t
want to be anybody’s long-lost ideal. They want to be taken for what
they are! Isn’t it so?”
“I don’t know,” said Felix, humbly.... Yes, doubtless there was
something unrealistic in his attitude toward girls—something that he
must get over.... “I’m afraid I don’t know very much about girls. You
may be right.”
“Of course I’m right,” affirmed Victor Budge. “It stands to reason that
there isn’t just one girl in all the world for you or me.” Which, while
perhaps not a logical sequitur to Victor Budge’s previous remarks, was
precisely what Felix had been trying to convince himself of....
“That,” said Victor Budge, “that sort of silly nonsense in people’s
heads is what makes them go around making themselves miserable, because
they haven’t yet found the one and only. I guess if a man was cast away
on a desert island with a girl, he’d find she was his one and only quick
enough! Of course, if you’re going to have to spend the rest of your
life with her, you’ll want somebody who knows what you’re talking about,
and all that sort of thing! But when all you want is an evening’s good
time, what difference does it make to you whether she’s read the latest
book by Henry James? There are some damn fine girls that couldn’t tell
Henry James from Jesse James, and you darn well know it!”
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