“At all events,” said he, “you cannot reproach yourself with the
destruction of a valuable life! The man was evidently the worthless
creature that he looked. You talk about your undesirable aliens, but
here in England you breed undesirables enough to manure the world! It’s
a public service to reduce their number.”
This pitch of nauseous cynicism had not been reached at a bound; the
doctor had been working up to it all the evening, and this was the
climax of his cold-blooded consolation as the schoolboy mechanically
undressed himself for bed. His host had accompanied him up two pairs of
stairs, carrying candles, and his meerschaum pipe in aromatic blast.
Pocket felt a new chill through his veins, but he was not revolted as
he would have been at first. This extraordinary man had shown him still
more extraordinary kindness; the die was cast for them to stand or fall
together; and there was something about the gaunt old visionary, a
confidential candour, a dry intellectual plausibility, which could not
but stimulate respect for his ungodliest views. Whether they really
were his views, or only a tortuous attempt at comfort, the sympathy
underlying their expression was undoubted and indubitable. But the
doctor spoke as though he meant every word, and the boy only longed to
agree with him: his conscientious failure to do so declared itself in a
series of incoherent expostulations to which Baumgartner himself gave
articulate shape in order to demolish them in the next breath.
“You say his life was as much to him as yours to you? Is that it, my
young fellow?”
Pocket acknowledged the interpretation, and watched the Turk’s head
wreathed in cool blue clouds.
“You might as well compare withered weed with budding flower!” cried
the poetic doctor. “You have an honourable life before you; he had a
disreputable one behind him. You were bred and nurtured in the lap of
luxury; he finds it for the first time in his——”
But here even Baumgartner broke off abruptly. The boy was writhing in
his bed; the man sat down on the end of it.
“You do such poor devils a service,” said he, “in sending them to a
world that cannot use them worse than this one. They are better under
the ground than lying on it drenched and drunk!”
“It was a human life,” groaned the boy, shutting his eyes in pain.
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