Maggie! His eyes rested upon her. Her face suddenly struck him as being
of extraordinary beauty. He had never thought her beautiful before;
very plain, of course. Every one knew that she was plain. But to-day
her face and profile had the simplicity, the purity, the courage of a
Madonna in one of the old pictures--or, rather, of one of those St.
John the Baptist boys gazing up into the face of the Christ--child as
it lay in its mother's arms. He finished the "Confession"
hurriedly--Maggie's face faded from his view; he saw now only a garden
of hats and heads, the bright varnished colour of the church around and
about them all.
He gave out the psalms; there was a rustle of leaves, and soon shrill,
untrained voices of the choir-boys were screaming the chant like a
number of baby steam-whistles in competition.
When he climbed into the pulpit he tried again to discover Maggie's
face as he had already seen it. He could not; it had been, perhaps, a
trick of light and, in any case, she was hidden now behind the stout
stolidity of Grace. He looked around at the other faces beneath him and
saw them settle themselves into their customary expressions of torpor,
vacuity and expectation. Very little expectation! They knew well
enough, by this time, the kind of thing to expect from him, the turn of
phrase, the rise and fall of the voice, the pause dramatic, the whisper
expostulatory, the thrust imperative, the smile seductive.
He had often been told, as a curate, that he was a wonderful preacher.
His round jolly face, his beaming smile, a certain dramatic gift, had
helped him. "He is so human," he had heard people say. For many years
he had lived on that phrase. For the first time in his life, this
morning he distrusted his gift. He was out of touch with them
all--because they were dead, killed by forms and repetitions and
monotony. "We're all dead, you know, and I'm dead too. Let's close the
doors and seal this church up. Our day is over." He said of course
nothing of the kind. His sermon was stupid, halting and ineffective.
"Naturally," as Colonel Rideout said over his port at lunch, "when a
feller's wife's uncle has just hung himself in public, so to speak, it
does take the wind out of you. He usen't to preach badly once. Got
stale. They all do."
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