London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
gentleman could see so much in mere vulgarities of opinion, and though
she uttered as few words as possible, conversing only in sad smiles and
headshakes and in intercepted movements toward the door, she happened, in
some unguarded lapse from her reticence, to use the expression that she
was disappointed in him. He caught at it and, seeming to drop his
field-glass, pressed upon her with nearer, tenderer eyes.
“Can I be so happy as to believe, then, that you had thought of me with
some confidence, with some faith?”
“If you didn’t suppose so, what is the sense of this visit?” Rose asked.
“One can be faithful without reciprocity,” said the young man. “I regard
you in a light which makes me want to protect you even if I have nothing
to gain by it.”
“Yet you speak as if you thought you might keep me for yourself.”
“For _yourself_. I don’t want you to suffer.”
“Nor to suffer yourself by my doing so,” said Rose, looking down.
“Ah, if you would only marry me next month!” he broke out inconsequently.
“And give up going to mamma?” Rose waited to see if he would say “What
need that matter? Can’t your mother come to us?” But he said nothing of
the sort; he only answered—
“She surely would be sorry to interfere with the exercise of any other
affection which I might have the bliss of believing that you are now
free, in however small a degree, to entertain.”
Rose knew that her mother wouldn’t be sorry at all; but she contented
herself with rejoining, her hand on the door: “Good-bye. I sha’n’t
suffer. I’m not afraid.”
“You don’t know how terrible, how cruel, the world can be.”
“Yes, I do know. I know everything!”
The declaration sprang from her lips in a tone which made him look at her
as he had never looked before, as if he saw something new in her face, as
if he had never yet known her. He hadn’t displeased her so much but that
she would like to give him that impression, and since she felt that she
was doing so she lingered an instant for the purpose. It enabled her to
see, further, that he turned red; then to become aware that a carriage
had stopped at the door. Captain Jay’s eyes, from where he stood, fell
upon this arrival, and the nature of their glance made Rose step forward
to look. Her mother sat there, brilliant, conspicuous, in the eternal
victoria, and the footman was already sounding the knocker. It had been
no part of the arrangement that she should come to fetch her; it had been
out of the question—a stroke in such bad taste as would have put Rose in
the wrong. The girl had never dreamed of it, but somehow, suddenly,
perversely, she was glad of it now; she even hoped that her grandmother
and her aunt were looking out upstairs.
“My mother has come for me. Good-bye,” she repeated; but this time her
visitor had got between her and the door.
“Listen to me before you go. I will give you a life’s devotion,” the
young man pleaded. He really barred the way.
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