London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
sin was small. The girl could laugh indeed now at that theory of her
being dragged down. If one thing were more present to her than another
it was the very desolation of their propriety. As she glanced at her
companion, it sometimes seemed to her that if she had been a bad woman
she would have been worse than that. There were compensations for being
“cut” which Mrs. Tramore too much neglected.
The lonely old lady in Hill Street—Rose thought of her that way now—was
the one person to whom she was ready to say that she would come to her on
any terms. She wrote this to her three times over, and she knocked still
oftener at her door. But the old lady answered no letters; if Rose had
remained in Hill Street it would have been her own function to answer
them; and at the door, the butler, whom the girl had known for ten years,
considered her, when he told her his mistress was not at home, quite as
he might have considered a young person who had come about a place and of
whose eligibility he took a negative view. That was Rose’s one pang,
that she probably appeared rather heartless. Her aunt Julia had gone to
Florence with Edith for the winter, on purpose to make her appear more
so; for Miss Tramore was still the person most scandalised by her
secession. Edith and she, doubtless, often talked over in Florence the
destitution of the aged victim in Hill Street. Eric never came to see
his sister, because, being full both of family and of personal feeling,
he thought she really ought to have stayed with his grandmother. If she
had had such an appurtenance all to herself she might have done what she
liked with it; but he couldn’t forgive such a want of consideration for
anything of his. There were moments when Rose would have been ready to
take her hand from the plough and insist upon reintegration, if only the
fierce voice of the old house had allowed people to look her up. But she
read, ever so clearly, that her grandmother had made this a question of
loyalty to seventy years of virtue. Mrs. Tramore’s forlornness didn’t
prevent her drawing-room from being a very public place, in which Rose
could hear certain words reverberate: “Leave her alone; it’s the only way
to see how long she’ll hold out.” The old woman’s visitors were people
who didn’t wish to quarrel, and the girl was conscious that if they had
not let her alone—that is if they had come to her from her
grandmother—she might perhaps not have held out. She had no friends
quite of her own; she had not been brought up to have them, and it would
not have been easy in a house which two such persons as her father and
his mother divided between them. Her father disapproved of crude
intimacies, and all the intimacies of youth were crude. He had married
at five-and-twenty and could testify to such a truth. Rose felt that she
shared even Captain Jay with her grandmother; she had seen what _he_ was
worth. Moreover, she had spoken to him at that last moment in Hill
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