Who, passing below on the black strip of water and, seeing her pale,
white face looking out from that high window into the night, could have
conceived of such wonderful reconciliation as this? Who could have
imagined the whole moment as it was? An old gentleman lying in a tiny
room, the lamp still burning on the altar at his side, his hands crossed
upon his breast in an unbreaking sleep; away out upon the water of the
Lagoon, two lovers, young, alight with life, exalted in a sudden
realisation of happiness, and this little old white-haired lady, alone
in that great, high-ceilinged room, with its heavy, deep-coloured
curtains and its massive pictures hanging on the wall and in the heart
of her, a great uplifting thankfulness in the midst of such absolute
desolation as this, a thankfulness that her life was a great, an
all-comprehending fulfilment, that her greatest work was done, her
highest desire reached--who, in the first inspiration of their
imagination, seeing that frail white face pressed close against the
window pane, could have conjured to their mind such a moment as this?
And yet, these simple things are life. A face peering from a window, a
hand trembling at a touch, a sudden laugh, a sudden silence, they all
may hide the greatest history, if one had but the eyes to read.
For more than half-an-hour she remained there without movement almost,
except when she pressed her hand inquiringly to her breast to feel for
the beating of her heart. At last, with a little shudder, as though, in
that moment, she realised the vast space of emptiness in the great room
behind her, she moved away.
Still her steps were steady, still her head was high, as she walked back
to the little room where, evening after evening, year after year, the
old gentleman had sat with her and talked, until the time came when they
must go to bed. For with old people, as you know, it comes to be a
state of--must--they must go to bed. It is not kind to tell them so,
but there it is.
The room was disordered; for a time of sickness is as a time of
siege--the time when Death lays siege upon a house and there are no
moments left to put things as they were.
On any other occasion, she would have fretted at the sight. The world
is sometimes all compassed in an old lady’s work-basket, and to upset
that, is to turn the world upside down. But now, as she saw all the
untidiness, the little old white-haired lady only sighed. She took her
accustomed chair and, seating herself, stared quietly at the chair that
was empty, the chair that was still placed, just as he had left it that
morning when, going down to see to his garden and to speak to Tito, he
had fallen in the great room outside, and they had carried him straight
to his bed.
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