The Complete Essays of John GalsworthyGalsworthy, John
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The Complete Essays of John Galsworthy
Galsworthy, John
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I glanced back from my moving cab. Some monetary transaction was passing
between him and the loafer, but, short-sighted as I am, I found it
difficult to decide which of those tall, pale, bearded figures was
giving the other one a penny. And by some strange freak an awful vision
shot up before me—of myself, and my distant relative, and Claud, and
Richard, and Willie, and Alan, all suddenly relying on ourselves. I took
out my handkerchief to mop my brow; but a thought struck me, and I put
it back. Was it possible for me, and my distant relatives, and their
distant relatives, and so on to infinity of those who be longed to a
class provided by birth with a certain position, raised by Providence
on to a platform made up of money inherited, of interest, of education
fitting us for certain privileged pursuits, of friends similarly
endowed, of substantial homes, and substantial relatives of some sort or
other, on whom we could fall back—was it possible for any of us ever
to be in the position of having to rely absolutely on ourselves? For
several minutes I pondered that question; and slowly I came to the
conclusion that, short of crime, or that unlikely event, marooning, it
was not possible. Never, never—try as we might—could any single one
of us be quite in the position of one of those whose approaching
pauperisation my distant relative had so vehemently deplored. We were
already pauperised. If we served our country, we were pensioned.... If
we inherited land, it could not be taken from us. If we went into the
Church, we were there for life, whether we were suitable or no. If we
attempted the more hazardous occupations of the law, medicine, the
arts, or business, there were always those homes, those relations, those
friends of ours to fall back on, if we failed. No! We could never have
to rely entirely on ourselves; we could never be pauperised more than we
were already! And a light burst in on me. That explained why my distant
relative felt so keenly. It bit him, for he saw, of course, how
dreadful it would be for these poor people of the working classes when
legislation had succeeded in placing them in the humiliating position
in which we already were—the dreadful position of having something to
depend on apart from our own exertions, some sort of security in our
lives. I saw it now. It was his secret pride, gnawing at him all the
time, that made him so rabid on the point. He was longing, doubtless,
day and night, not to have had a father who had land, and had left a
sister well enough off to keep him while he was waiting for his job.
He must be feeling how horribly degrading was the position of Claud
—inheriting that land; and of Richard, who, just because he had served
in the Indian Civil Service, had got to live on a pension all the rest
of his days; and of Willie, who was in danger at any moment, if his
health—always delicate—gave out, of having a sinecure found for him by
his college friends; and of Alan, whose educated charm had enabled him
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