On that day she did not see anybody either. She drove her charges
home in the evening listlessly and the beasts also were very quiet.
When the music came again she made no effort to discover where it
came from. She only listened, and when the tune was ended she saw
a figure rise from the fold of a little hill. The sunlight was
gleaming from his arms and shoulders but the rest of his body was
hidden by the bracken, and he did not look at her as he went away
playing softly on a double pipe.
[Illustration: He stood waist-deep in greenery fronting her
squarely]
The next day he did look at her. He stood waist-deep in greenery
fronting her squarely. She had never seen so strange a face before.
Her eyes almost died on him as she gazed and he returned her look
for a long minute with an intent, expressionless regard. His hair
was a cluster of brown curls, his nose was little and straight, and
his wide mouth drooped sadly at the corners. His eyes were wide and
most mournful, and his forehead was very broad and white. His sad
eyes and mouth almost made her weep.
When he turned away he smiled at her, and it was as though the
sun had shone suddenly in a dark place, banishing all sadness
and gloom. Then he went mincingly away. As he went he lifted the
slender double reed to his lips and blew a few careless notes.
The next day he fronted her as before, looking down to her eyes
from a short distance. He played for only a few moments, and
fitfully, and then he came to her. When he left the bracken the
girl suddenly clapped her hands against her eyes affrighted.
There was something different, terrible about him. The upper part
of his body was beautiful, but the lower part.... She dared not
look at him again. She would have risen and fled away but she
feared he might pursue her, and the thought of such a chase and
the inevitable capture froze her blood. The thought of anything
behind us is always terrible. The sound of pursuing feet is worse
than the murder from which we fly—So she sat still and waited but
nothing happened. At last, desperately, she dropped her hands. He
was sitting on the ground a few paces from her. He was not looking
at her but far away sidewards across the spreading hill. His legs
were crossed; they were shaggy and hoofed like the legs of a goat:
but she would not look at these because of his wonderful, sad,
grotesque face. Gaiety is good to look upon and an innocent face
is delightful to our souls, but no woman can resist sadness or
weakness, and ugliness she dare not resist. Her nature leaps to
be the comforter. It is her reason. It exalts her to an ecstasy
wherein nothing but the sacrifice of herself has any proportion.
Men are not fathers by instinct but by chance, but women are
mothers beyond thought, beyond instinct which is the father of
thought. Motherliness, pity, self-sacrifice—these are the charges
of her primal cell, and not even the discovery that men are
comedians, liars, and egotists will wean her from this. As she
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