Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
This life, which Tom’s words had given, was now David’s. They walked.
They sat on a rock fairly dry. David paddled Tom in his canoe. David was
alone at _The Villa_. This life which Tom’s mood had given, was now
David’s....
“All the time,” Tom had said, “I was dreaming to be a lawyer. Sister was
dreaming to be a sculptress.”
“Is she?”
“Yes.... Both of us what we dreamed to be. Neither of us what we dreamed
to be.”
* * * * *
The week went. The last day came. They decided to go to New York
together. They packed each his bag and sent it ahead to the station.
They were free-footed under the last free morning.
The field was a gash of brilliance across the wooded forehead of day.
The trees were very tall: their feet dwelt in dawn, their heads touched
the noon. August--and David’s mother dead since May. The field was a
gash of light in David’s mind....
He loved his mother. But his love remained at the depth where it began:
one with his needs when he was an infant and she nursed him, a child
bruised against the world and she consoled him. She was gone: but the
glow of her motherhood still warmed through his life. Like his love, his
loss was mute. He did not know how deeply he loved, he did not know how
deeply he had lost his mother.
He wound up his affairs--or rather he watched while the benign agency of
his uncle wound them up for him. He pocketed a fabulous mass of bills.
Almost in the spirit of a wanderer after Beauty he came away.
The spirit of one who believes in the presence of Peace like the running
on of the wind, like the running on of a river, like the spreading of
flowers upon the fields of the world.
He had come to this lake, gemmed in green purpling hills. His calm came
with him. He listened to neighbors’ talk, he wondered pleasantly before
the world. All of it was a thing outside. He saw himself at work in a
repair shop, at table with the gentle woman whose breath was a well of
feeling. He lived in a dream that was real and was not yet over.
Sudden this man! Walking beside him now, upon the gash of the world, his
new experience was a hand that touched him--brushed back the hair from
his sleepy eyes--pressed fever to his brow--grasped his throat so it was
hard to breathe--struck him!
David found he walked in a hurting wonder: the woods were part of this
wonder: the man beside him was part of a whirling wonder. He was like a
slumberous water that the wind struck sudden from all sides. The waves
of his feelings were up and down. His deep self--his past--rose through
the lashed fissures of his mood. He knew that his old life was dead and
how he loved it: that his new life was being born and how he feared it!
At the day’s close the night: at that day’s close the City!
The day was gleaming glad but David walked in storm.
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