Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Tom said to him: “You didn’t like the way I was to-day with Durthal? Oh,
my dear fellow, it was plain enough. It was written all over you. My
only wonder was what poor old Lars was thinking. What a dear, black
grouch you can be, Davie.... Well, why should I not be cordial to Lars?
Why should I not pay as much attention to him as I wish? And more than I
do to my best friend--yes, my best friend whom I ignored? I know that,
Davie. In company I do not need to pay attention to you. You are not
part of company. If I ignored you--logical, eh? I have _you_ alone. And
if, in yourself, you do not know the difference in the way I feel toward
yourself and toward silly, empty-headed Durthal, do not expect me to
make it clear with a room full of fellows. Because I won’t!”
“Do you think Durthal empty-headed?”
“You know he has just enough stupidity to make an intelligent professor
of Swedish drill.”
“And Darby Lunn?”
“Lunn has talent, David. Whether he will ever amount to a thing as a
painter is another thing. I doubt it. He is a bit mad, you know.
Nurtures all the nonsense of his will with a great pride instead of
trampling it under, as a true artist should. What I am trying to help
him toward is knowledge of the folly of extravagance and wildness in so
sober a calling as Art.”
“But you are wild with him, Tom. You talk nonsense and you act nonsense
as I have never seen you do with any one else!”
“If I didn’t meet him on his own ground, what chance would I have of
drawing him off it?... Really, Davie, you are a joke.”
“Are you very fond of him also?”
“Not also--and not either. I am interested in Darby’s hopeless talent:
and in Durthal’s efficient helplessness.”
“They both believe, I am sure, that you’re devoted to them.”
“Well: they are devoted to me. Why should I not let them think what
gives them pleasure? Do I harm them--does what I let them think harm
you?" ... David often wondered if each believed himself Tom’s “only
friend.”
But now he knew these doubts unworthy. He had a strength with which to
exorcize them. He knew that _he_ was the real friend. He knew that Tom
was not altogether conscious of his motives with such “friends” as Lunn
and Durthal. The truth was, he loved power: loved the nearness of those
over whose minds he was ascendant. Unconsciously, he fed to each a
subjecting mental and emotional food. This was but one of the details of
Tom’s curious character; David now understood.
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