Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
He attended to work. There was always enough mental energy for that. In
fact his work was his savior. It took him out of himself: but not upon
some shattering objective world, shrunken and tortured and congested
like that by which he had once measured himself and found that he was
good. It took him out of himself into an easy world of conventions and
abstractions: where figures had the relief of ineluctable laws, where
there were fixed commodities like tobacco and freight-rates, where men
were sure machines of buying and selling, where values and credit could
be determined. A sweet, imagined, malleable world, the world of
Business, in which each day for a few hours, David took refuge. Another
such world he now rediscovered and frequented. He had greatly neglected
his violin. Always he had played without consistency, and now be did not
play at all. It must have been painful and intrusive to make music of
one’s own, so David let the dust gather on his instrument and the
strings break. It was different with the world of the music of others.
David began to go to concerts: chiefly orchestral concerts. He did not
care for the virtuosi, he detested Opera. The symphony of eighty
upraised voices, marvelously artificial, essenced and controlled, swung
him at once into a distant land. These worlds of the violins and horns
and ’celli were also concise and constrained. Their ecstasy was a
comfortable unit, as compared with the vast vagueness of a City street.
In a way far more grandiose, music was a release, like business, for
David.
With violent wrenching of his nerves, he forced himself to look at his
dear friend.... This after all was Tom whom he had loved, who had found
him at his advent into the life of the City and into life itself. This
was that friend who had opened his mind, loosed his tongue, made him not
too bitterly mourn his mother. This was Tom who, when he was ill, had
nursed him and he had been so sure had loved him, whom now with
straining nerves he tried to see, clear through a strange hot haze about
them.
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