Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
The crowds flayed him with dull black strokes and Tom was separate from
his first months in the City. He twined this with thoughts of David. It
was different of course. David must have found a ready welcome in the
house of his uncle. Tom knew of Anthony Deane: his name was that of a
big-hearted, well-liked merchant. Tom had come with no reception, no one
to remake and to keep him. He thought of a stone fallen in a
wind-shattered sea, how it sank with no slightest added tremor of wave
and no sign from the swinging heavens. He knew what the City had done
upon him. The terracing steel had rivetted his eyes and writhed him. The
clamor of this world had soon enticed him from the call of his old
thoughts. Old dreams were outrun by the faëry of the City.
He stood naked there, and emptied among millions. Cornelia was distant
with her cold hand in his. But he was more alive than he had been. He
knew this, because his nudity was not stark. It was encased in a great
trembling. It was cold with a great hunger for warmth. A fire of will
stirred in him: darted from him out and became vision among the
millions. He had seen. He saw that these millions also were naked and
forlorn from themselves. No one was at home in the City: no one was
himself in the City! Tom had found himself smiling, known himself
strong. He was naked no longer. _He was clothed in the knowledge of the
nakedness of others_.... At once he had looked at his hands and found
money. He prospered. But Tom knew that this light from within himself
which played about among the darkness of men and brought him the
strength of knowledge could not go forth from him and stay in him as
well. When it was away, outside, doing his work Success, he was unlit
himself.
Would he find David still shivering in his new nakedness? Tom remembered
the distinction between them.
“No,” he said aloud: “he’ll be thinking there’s darkness and confusion
all about, in the blinding blare of his own light. And blaming it all on
himself.”
He winced, suddenly finding it cold. The dark pupils of his eyes
distended, the mouth drew downward over the lower lip, the skin was taut
on his cheek-bones. Then a recovering spark in his eyes illumed their
warm particles of bistre, the defiant smile of his mouth pointed upward.
The lamps of the restaurant façade fell over Tom and bathed him. He had
the sudden pain of feeling himself a black spot in warm blaze. He moved
aside to shadow. He stepped out, and grasped David’s hand.
A coachman stood at the corner beside his horse. Idly he flapped his
arms--a habit caught from the cold winters--against the musty broadcloth
of his coat. He saw the two young men in the light. Their profiles were
sharp. An eager alert young man and a drowsy one, passive before him. A
clear laugh and a muffled laugh that followed always. The coachman
turned to his horse: “Well, young feller, have some oats?” He prodded
his soft nose. The other two were gone.
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