He was scarcely listening. Surely no woman ever had such wonderful hair
as Philippa’s. His hands ached to touch it, to feel it running through
his fingers. He got up abruptly, and began to pace the grass plot as he
had paced it that morning when he had been thinking of her. Now she
was before him with her big, velvety eyes, her marvellous hair, her
long slender limbs. He realized presently that she was still speaking.
“I suppose it is fatally easy,” she was saying meditatively, “for a
married woman who has led a sheltered life to grow a little petty and
narrow. After all, it is the worker, the struggler, who purifies her
nature. Don’t you think so? But in time, I think, even the married
woman may learn.”
“Learn what?” he murmured, absently, throwing himself once more into
the cane chair beside her.
“To love less selfishly,” she returned, looking down at him; “to admit
the value of every ennobling friendship--a friendship such as ours,
Fergus! What can it mean but good? Good for both of us. Good for
_her_, too, if only she would take it so,” she added, softly.
Robert made a restless movement. The spell of her presence was somehow
broken. He felt worried, exasperated, angry with himself--almost angry
with Philippa. She expected too much of human nature. Certainly too
much of _his_.
“But, as a matter of fact, you can’t get a woman to take it like
that!” he exclaimed, in spite of himself. “Consider our case if you
like,” he added, in an injured tone. “What woman would believe in mere
friendship, if she knew we had met--how often? Nearly every day, as a
matter of fact, for the last three months. It isn’t in human nature!”
He spoke almost irritably, prompted by an undefined notion that, having
put such a strain upon any woman’s credulity, it was ridiculous not to
have justified her disbelief. For a moment he wished Philippa had been
a less noble woman.
She sighed. “Then I suppose you were quite right not to tell her,” she
said, descending abruptly upon the personal pronoun. “Your idea is to
let her grow used to our friendship, here in the country, under her
eyes, so that she may gradually come to believe in its purity?”
Robert felt a little nonplussed. He had thought this particular idea
emanated from Philippa herself, but as she spoke of it decidedly as
his, she must have no doubt that he had suggested it. In any case, it
was scarcely chivalrous to undeceive her.
“Perhaps you are right,” she murmured, after a moment. Presently, as
Robert watched her, she smiled, slowly, indulgently, as a mother
smiles at the waywardness of a little child. “How charming Cecily is!”
she said. “She always appealed to me, even as a schoolgirl. I always
wanted to _protect_ her in some way. She was so fragile--so sweet.
She had very little character,--as a child, I mean,--but then she was
so graceful, so lovable, one scarcely missed it.”
Robert was silent. He felt vaguely uncomfortable.
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