The deserted wifeSouthworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
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The deserted wife
Southworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
American fiction -- 19th century; Maryland -- Fiction
Sometimes Hagar would arouse herself, and throwing off at least all
manifestation of gloom or sullenness, would make an effort to regain her
fast ebbing power of pleasing; she also cultivated her rare talent for
music; but she could seldom succeed in giving Raymond pleasure. He loved
melody, and her forte was grand harmony. The grand anthems of Haydn,
Handel, and Beethoven, lost none of their grandeur in her apprehension
and expression. But her soul was strung upon too high a key, to give out
sweetly the low breathing music of the melodies he loved. Thus he
luxuriated in the bright, soft shower of Rosalia, full of melody, and
writhed when the sublime storm of Hagar’s grand harmony flashed and
thundered around him. Hagar saw this with anguish, oh! and this very
anguish gave inspiration, gave additional force and expression to her
passionate, to her gorgeous, to her awful conceptions of music! At last,
however, she gave up the hope of ever inspiring him with admiration of
her fierce tempests of harmony, and tried her voice and her touch upon
the airs he loved, but here she failed—failed entirely. This was not her
proper forte, and she had, as yet, too little control over her voice to
manage it mechanically—to reduce it to the minor keys—she depended for
much of her grand performance upon inspiration, and she had no
inspiration for those low breathing melodies. Even suffering did not
give it her; for in her hours of anguish her soul found its only
expression in the sharp cry, the deep roar, the thunder of the grand
harmony,—not in the sob and wail of melody. So Hagar abandoned the
seemingly vain attempt to make her music agreeable in the drawing. She
cultivated the art—_her_ art now by vocation and adoption—with all the
passionate enthusiasm of her ardent nature; it became her solace, her
soul’s expression. Her days were divided between her music and her
children. At length, not being able to find sufficient expression, her
soul began to struggle for freer, fuller utterance—for the revelation of
its _own_ individual life and love, poetry and music—and Hagar became a
poet and a musician by these steps; first she set the finest passages of
her best loved poets to the sublimest strains of her most admired
composers wherever they could be adapted; where they could not, she
essayed to set the poetry to music of her own composition, as in the
instance of Smart’s song; and then to compose words to her favorite
strains of harmony. At last she attained the power of revealing her
_own_ poetry—breathing her _own_ music. She was but nineteen. Her music
and her poetry were all impromptus of sudden, irresistible
inspiration—the expression of her life at the moment—the electric flash
of soul, bright and gone in an instant—they were unwritten, inspired,
expressed, and forgotten. They would come, these spasms of inspiration,
as the blast comes, and go as it subsides; come as the tide comes, and
go as it ebbs; come, waking the stillness of her soul as the thunder
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