His library added its testimony as to other humanities. Scattered about
on tables and mantel-piece were fine old pipes and boxes of cigars and
playing-cards. There were poker chips, showing that the doctor had poker
neighbors (where else if not there?), though whist was his game. You
realized that he was a man at home among a people who loved play--must
have play. On his sideboard were temperate decanters: he had sideboard
neighbors. Altogether a human-looking room for much that is human; easy
to enter, comfortable to stay in, hard to quit.
But our closest friends can come so close to us and no closer; they
surround us but none of them enters us. Nature forbids that any but our
own feet should cross the bridge spanning the distance between other
people and the fortress of the individual. Across that bridge we can
take with us no companions except those that keep silent amid its
silences; that can speak to us but that cannot see us: those great
voices without eyes; those great listeners without ears; great
counsellors without criticism; great hands that guide and refuse to
smite; great judges that embody law and refuse to sit in judgment on
us--Books.
Some of the doctor's books held for him life's indispensable laughter;
and no one of us ever tells all the things in this world that we laugh
at. Some held for him life's tears; and no one of us ever tells the
things that secretly start our own. Some held neither laughter nor tears
but what is above both--life's calm; and what one of us but at times
feels the need to ascend to some inner mountain-top of our own
spirits--far above the whole darkened or radiant cloud-rack of
emotion--and look futureward into the promised peace, the end of our
wandering. Joys--sorrows--and calm: these three for him, too.
Such books stayed with the doctor year after year. He could wake in the
night and find them through the darkness; in the darkness they knew how
to find him. They were not part of his medical library, of course, which
was another matter. But they filled three sides of a large low revolving
bookcase in the middle of the room beside his easy chair and his lamp
and table.
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