At the same moment Josiah was turning away from a wooden bar which shut
off an office from the public. He had entered and stood there, meek,
unobtrusive, trembling, while none of the young men or young women busy
at desks or with one another paid him any attention. When a girl with
hair combed over her ears, very bright eyes, and very short skirts,
tripped by him accidentally, he managed to stammer out something in
which she caught the word "job." The word being significant, and
Josiah’s appearance more so, she whispered to a gentleman, who left his
desk and came forward.
"No; I’m very sorry. We can’t do anything for you."
He hadn’t waited for the word "job"; he hadn’t waited for Josiah to
speak at all. He knew the situation so well that his method was to end
it there and then. Josiah turned away meekly as he had entered, and with
no sinking of the heart. His heart used to sink; but that was four and
five months previously, before he had exhausted his emotions. Now the
bitterness of death was past. It had passed day by day and inch by inch,
by stages of slow agony, leaving him with a dried soul that couldn’t
suffer any more.
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And also at this minute Teddy was standing in his cage at the bank in a
very peculiar situation. At least it struck him as peculiar, because for
the first time he perceived its opportunities.
For Teddy, too, six months had been a period of development, just as it
is for a green fruit when you pick it and lay it in the sun. It ripens,
but it ripens green. When you eat it, it has a green flavor, or a flat
flavor, or none at all. Teddy was a fruit to be left on the tree to take
its time. He was now twenty-one, with the promptings of sixteen. At his
own rate of progress, he would probably have reached twenty by the time
he was twenty-two, but thirty at twenty-five.
As it was, he had been called on to be thirty when his growth was just
beginning. Not merely the circumstances had made this demand on him, but
the dependence, more or less unconscious, of the members of the family.
They looked to him to do something big because he was a young man.
Having heard of other young men who had been financially heroic, they
expected him to be the same. The possibilities, open to a bank clerk of
twenty-one had no relation to their hopes. Even his mother, chiefly
because of her adoration, seemed to feel that he should spring from
eighteen to a hundred dollars a week by the force of inner flame.
She didn’t say so, of course. She only revealed her sentiments as Pansy
revealed hers, by an inextinguishable look. The father did no more than
throw emphasis on the boy’s responsibility. Jennie and Gladys never said
anything at all, but Gussie was quite frank.
"A great big fellow like you and only making eighteen per! Look at poor
momma, working her fingers to the bone. I’d be ashamed if I were you.
Why, Fred Inglis orders his clothes at Love’s and keeps his own Ford."
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