His father, grave and preoccupied, whose arrivals after long periods of
absence had in them an effect of secrecy and haste, was to the small
boy a being, august, but remote. During his brief sojourns at home the
quiet house awoke to greater fulness of life, with much coming and
going of other grave personages, strange of dress, and with a certain
effect of hardly restrained violence in their aspect. A spirit of fear
seemed to enter with them, demanding an unnatural darkening of windows
and closing of doors. Before Dominic they were of few words; but became
eloquent enough, in sonorous foreign speech, as his ears testified when
he was banished from their rather electric presence to the solitude of
the nursery above. And so it came about that a sense of mystery, of
large issues, of things at once strong and hidden, impenetrable to his
understanding and concerning which no questions might be asked,
encircled Dominic's childhood and passed into the very fabric of his
thought. While through it all his mother moved, to him tender and
wholly exquisite, but with the reticence of some deep-seated enthusiasm
silently cherished, some far-reaching alarm silently endured, always
upon her. And this resulted in an atmosphere of seriousness and
responsibility which inevitably reacted on the boy, making him sober
beyond his years, tempering his natural vivacity with watchfulness, and
pitching even his laughter in a minor key.
Only many years later, when after his mother's death it became his duty
to read letters exchanged between his parents during this period, did
Dominic Iglesias touch the key to the riddle, and fully measure the
public danger, the private strain and stress which had surrounded his
childhood and early youth. For his father, a man of far from ignoble
nature, but of narrow outlook and undying hatreds, was deeply involved
in revolutionary intrigue of the most advanced type--a victim of that
false passion of humanity which takes its rise not in honest desire for
the welfare of mankind, but in blind rebellion against all forms of
authority. His self-confidence was colossal; all rule being abominable
to him--save his own--all rulers hideous, save himself. The anarchist,
rightly understood, is merely the autocrat, the tyrant, turned inside
out. And this man, as Dominic gathered from the perusal of those old
letters, to whom the end so justified the means that red-handed crime
took on the fair colours of virtue, his mother had loved, even while
she feared him, with all the faithfulness and pure passion of her Irish
blood. Pathetic combination, the patience and resignation of the one
ever striving to temper the flaming zeal of the other, as though the
spindrift of the Atlantic, sweeping inland from the dim sadness of far
western coasts, should strive with relentless fierceness of sunglare
outpoured on some high-lying walled city of arid central Spain! Mist is
but a weak thing as against rock and fire; and what his mother must
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