The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
“Well, Baron, what about your news? Are you going to take it on to
Vimines?”
“That’s just it,” said he, winking his wicked eye.
“So you won’t tell us about it?”
“Oh, you will know it soon enough.”
“It’s all cry and no wool with you, you old humbug!”
On the threshold the rustic turned round and delivered himself of a
platitude with a sarcastic smile: “Live and learn! Well, well, what
will the old woman do?”
His feet falling lightly in the snow he passed behind Paule, who was
still leaning on the veranda rail.
“Good evening, miss. Bear up! You never know who’s alive or who’s dead.”
The girl started again, more at this voice heard unexpectedly behind
her back than at the words, whose meaning she did not understand. She
came back to the kitchen with a vague fear mingled with her uneasiness.
“Make us some nice soup, Marie, and very hot. It is freezing hard.” And
cheered by the cosy hearth she added, “That Baron almost frightened me.”
The servant snorted. “A good-for-nothing like that, with a long tongue!
I don’t want to see him round here any more. Your father was a good
Samaritan when he picked up that fish. And he has the evil eye. We must
take care. If the soup is burned, it will be all his fault. I don’t
know what story he had heard in the town, but he had a long face and
was watching us as a cat watches a rat.”
The girl went back to the drawing-room to stir the fire. Now she was
alone, she no longer felt her accustomed courage. Her heart was
beating loudly in her breast. She tried to comfort herself and did not
succeed.
“Trélaz’s horse goes so slowly. That business at the lawyer’s always
lasts so much longer than one thinks it will....”
She could no longer keep down her anxiety, which increased every
minute. Even prayer could not calm her. As she was on her knees, she
heard the drawing-room door open.
“Is Mamma there?” she cried as she rose from her knees. It was old
Marie who appeared at the door.
“No, Miss Paule. It is a man who wants to speak to the mistress.”
“Who is he?”
“He says he is a policeman and has been sent by the Mayor.”
“A policeman! What does he want with us?”
As her mind recalled all the bad omens of that evening, the girl
trembled while she gave the order for the man to be shown in. But she
controlled herself and received the Mayor’s messenger with the greatest
outward calm.
Faroux, the policeman, was one of those silent, stolid countrymen who
give themselves up entirely to their work without ever thinking about
it. But in the presence of Paule Guibert it was impossible for him not
to understand at last the importance of his mission. As he came along
the road he had not given a thought to it. So many people approach thus
absent-mindedly the most sacred and most serious tasks.
Standing before him the girl said:
“My mother is not at home. But could I not take her place?”
He stood there silent and stupid, and the pause increased Paule’s
secret fear. He stammered at last:
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