The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
“My God,” the poor woman murmured, “for the first time in my life I
have told a lie. Forgive me. These two children had to be brought
together. They were made for each other. Should not their happiness
go before mine? I am too old to follow them. I cannot leave my dead.
The earth is calling to me and Thou will soon summon me. Here I will
await the hour that Thou hast fixed. But grant me strength, Oh my God,
to bear this last separation calmly. I had grown accustomed to Paule’s
care and Thou remindest me, in taking away my only earthly joy, that
we cannot attach ourselves for ever to this world’s goods. In leaving
me she will take away the heart which Thou hast filled, before breaking
it. I offer Thee my sorrows beforehand, so that Thou mayst shower
the most abundant blessings on my sons, including Jean, and on my
daughters, on the living and the dead.”
She prayed a long time. At last she found peace in resignation, and her
tardy slumbers were tranquil.
CHAPTER IX
THE MIRACLE OF THE ROSES
On the road to Rose Villa Jean breathed in the air of the loveliest of
summer nights and tasted that joy which life gives when love comes to
make it straight and whole, not to disturb and torture.
Jean reached his uncle’s house before he knew where he was.
“Already!” he cried. And he smiled as he noticed that all the windows
of the little house were lighted up. “Is he having a party? That would
be an unusual sight.”
He opened the gate and went up the little rose-bordered path which led
in a straight line to the front door. Mechanically he stretched out his
hand, as he often did, towards the slim bushes and in the darkness his
fingers tried to gather a flower at haphazard; but they found only the
leaves and the thorns.
“Some thief,” he thought, “has climbed the fence and stolen my uncle’s
treasures! What a blow for the poor man!”
The door was still ajar. Jean pushed it open. It seemed as if he were
walking in a field of roses. The invisible garden, under shadow of
night, had apparently invaded the hall. Flowers lay in heaps, and the
electric light of the ante-room revealed, on a green background of
leaves, variegated patches of color--here in sharp contrast, there
in insensible gradations of hue. Red roses, crimson red, poppy-red,
carmine, nasturtium, flame-colored, copper, red of the dawn; white
roses, dead-white, pure white, creamy white; roses of tender pink,
peach-colored, bright pink; roses of pale yellow, straw-colored,
canary-colored, nankin yellow, lemon yellow, sulphur, orange; all
mingled their scents together.
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