The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
Only one of all
these doctors understood this, and that was Sir John Fayrer, a member
of the Royal Society of London, and head of the Sanitary Department in
India, who dared to say, in the midst of a flock of his colleagues
bleating with fear: “An experience of more than sixty years makes me
declare very clearly to you: I do not agree that death should surprise
a patient; he should be prepared for it.”
VI
Life is, after all, such a precious thing that one must neither reject
it entirely like those lazy egoists, who soften and contract it to such
a degree that it loses all its value; nor partly reject it like those
vigorous egoists, who claim to subordinate it to their choice.
The very act of opening one’s eyes to the light of day involves a debt
of gratitude to those who have permitted us to see it. Formerly in the
French family there was no doubt as to the goodness of life. The old
French family wrote its own story in its “commonplace books.” These
commonplace books were humble volumes of accounts, but it soon became
the custom to jot down, besides the record of expenditure, the most
important facts of private life, such as marriages, deaths, births.
Then there were added a few reflections, which sufficed to express a
whole range of feeling, a complete conception of life. We have a great
number of these books. They recall the time of our fathers and speak to
us with the majesty of a last will and testament. It is the gospel of
the wise. And it preaches faith in life to those who are inspired by
their fathers and are content to be worthy successors to them.
Though one should run through them all, one would not find a single
denial of the goodness of life. These workmen, farmers, merchants,
always welcome a new-born child with an expression of joy, even if he
comes after many others. The forms of baptism are all acts of faith
like the one that I came across in the book of Pagès, a merchant of
Amiens, who is celebrating the birth of a ninth child: “The divine
goodness, continuing to shed its blessings on our marriage, has favored
us with the birth of a son.” In the same way, the domestic diary of
Joseph de Sudre, of Avignon, is the story--I should say, the epic--of
his efforts, his privations, his savings, in order to be able to bring
up his numerous offspring. In spite of adverse circumstances and bad
harvests, he neglects nothing that contributes to that end. The old
French language used only one word to describe the maternal feeding and
moral education of the child. It was the verb _nourrir_, to “bring
up,” which we have degraded. Our Joseph de Sudre loses his son, a
captain in the King’s service, a man of great promise. After his short
and pathetic funeral speech he adds; “I have suffered poverty for him
with joy.”
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