The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
M. Dulaurens, who was taking short steps up and down the room for the
sake of his digestion (for this room with its ever closed bookcases was
particularly useful to him for this health-giving exercise), stopped
suddenly and seemed to realise at last that something unusual was going
on in his house.
“On your account?” he repeated uneasily.
With the brusque quickness of the irresolute, Alice at once burnt her
boats:
“Father, don’t you wish me to be happy?” she asked.
“Certainly, certainly! We wish it above all things.” And already he
saw all sorts of difficulties to disturb his peaceful existence in
the future and even his digestion at the present time. However, he
loved his pretty Alice, whose gentleness harmonised with his own
character, and he would even have adored and spoilt her, had he not
been restrained by the fear of his wife and the vain desire to imitate
in her absence her authoritative ways. Distracted between so many
feelings, whose complexity frightened him and hardened his usually
benign face, he demanded an explanation.
“You talk to me about Madame Guibert and then about your happiness. I
don’t understand.”
Alice hesitated no longer, and her nervousness itself prevented her
from guessing her father’s thoughts.
“She is going to ask for my hand on behalf of her son.”
“The captain?”
“Yes.”
She went on more falteringly, the whole force of her love summed up in
the poor little hope which her words expressed:
“Father, I beg you, you must consent and persuade Mamma.”
But for the closing phrase M. Dulaurens would have been touched.
He took in things in detail, and the last words always made most
impression on his mind.
“Persuade Mamma!” he cried. “It is always your mother,” he said
sharply, and began once more his walk up and down.
He made sure that the door was closed, stopped to listen, and then,
encouraged by the silence and sure of their privacy, he let himself go
boldly:
“Your mother! Don’t you know, my dear, that my consent is of far more
importance? The law demands that. And this law is just. There must be
one supreme authority in a household, and this authority is vested in
the head of the family, the _Paterfamilias_!”
He threw a rapid glance at the mirror to study his own omnipotent
appearance. He seemed to have forgotten the serious subject of the
interview, which the trembling Alice feared to recall to him. Must she
again pronounce the burning name of Marcel Guibert?
But coming down to earth again M. Dulaurens spared her at least this
new exhibition of courage, as he repeated word for word a sentence of
his wife’s:
“This young man is a hero. Heroism makes him one of us!”
By which his wife had meant, that one might safely receive Marcel
Guibert in a drawing-room so distinguished as that of La Chênaie!
Not wishing to commit himself, he hastened to raise several objections:
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