The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
“Ah,” murmured Jean, thinking: “She does not understand the meaning of
love. Isabelle Orlandi is marrying her Monsieur Landeau because she
loves luxury. Alice Dulaurens is going to marry Monsieur de Marthenay
because she is weak and because her mother wants a titled son-in-law
under her thumb. Young girls nowadays have no strong affection and
nobody to teach them.”
But he did not dare to think aloud. He read on his friend’s broad and
intelligent forehead, in his ardent eyes, the patent signs of his love.
“Then you must absolutely have this interview?”
“Absolutely.”
Jean made no further objections. As he was thinking of a plan, Marcel
began:
“You are an intimate friend of the Dulaurens family. It would be very
simple for you to say a word for me to Mademoiselle Dulaurens. I would
not ask you to do that for me if there were anything wrong about it.
I would have asked my sister to go, if Paule could go back to La
Chênaie--after the refusal.”
He had to swallow his pride in saying this. Raising his head, he went
on with a disdainful air.
“This refusal is unjust. Her parents have no right to use their
authority just to satisfy their prejudice and selfishness, and to break
their daughter’s heart for their own vanity. Nobody has more reverence
for their authority than I, when it is exercised wisely and justly.
Paule saw her friend at church. She could not speak to her, but she
noticed that she was looking pale, languid, and despairing. I must
speak to her. There is no treachery in it, no loss of respect for her.
You must realise this before answering me.”
“Very well,” said Jean. And after reflecting a second or two he added:
“I repeat your words. Think of her face, her innocent eyes. She would
not meet you.”
Marcel was thoughtful for a few moments.
“You are right,” he agreed. “Let us think no more about it I will go
away without seeing her again.”
He made no other complaint, but the simplicity of his words touched his
friend’s heart and although he thought it would certainly be better for
him to go away without seeing her, he knew Marcel was so unhappy that
he tried to think of some way to help him.
“Look here,” he said. “Leave it to me, I will tell you at the proper
time, and you shall see her again.”
“How will you manage it?” asked Marcel rather uneasily.
“She shall meet you without having been told. It will be your business
to keep her.”
Tired of discussing a serious topic so long, Jean assumed a lighter
tone.
“Heavens, it will serve them right! De Marthenay irritates me, and the
Dulaurenses are such awful snobs! It isn’t perhaps quite the correct
thing, but it is just, and I am delighted to be able to pay them back.”
Already he was thinking of a plan which would be simple and easy to
carry out.
“You wanted to see my mother?” said Marcel. “Let us go back to the
house.”
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