Platonic love -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Schoolboys -- England -- Fiction; Teenage boys -- England -- Fiction
And yet he had had other moments――moments when he had seen, or had
seemed to see, that Brocklehurst understood little enough of all that
their friendship meant to him. How _could_ he understand? Graham, at
least, could never tell him. Ah, no one, no one but himself understood,
no one but himself knew how the gentle tone of his friend’s voice had
a power to draw the tears to his eyes, a power to sink into his inmost
soul. Oh, he loved him so dearly! There was something in the very
secrecy of his affection that permitted him to keep it passionately
apart from everything else, from his life of everyday, from any vulgar
or prosaic encroachment. He kept it in a place sacred, beautiful,
quiet; a chapel within his own spirit, a chapel into whose soft light
he passed from time to time to worship, to be alone there, alone there
with his love, alone there before the altar he had decked with candles
and flowers, with the white stainless flowers of his boyish admiration,
his innocence and faith....
Nevertheless, little by little, it was forced upon him――incredulous at
first, reluctant to believe――that Brocklehurst’s reputation was not a
good one. Nothing very precise as yet; only a few vague rumours; but
he knew, could easily see, that his friend was not liked. At first
he had found this hard to credit, inconceivable almost; but when one
boy after another practically advised him to drop his chum he could
no longer close his eyes to the fact. Naturally he felt tremendously
angry. It seemed so mean, so cowardly, so unfair; for no one, though
all were willing enough to hint, to suggest, appeared able to tell
him anything definite. He knew, of course, that Brocklehurst had been
absent from the school for a while――had been removed, more than one boy
quite plainly told him――but even were this the case (and Brocklehurst
himself had never alluded to it), the fact of his having been brought
back again, in Graham’s opinion, openly, triumphantly, established
his innocence. And innocence of what? When all was said and done, one
could be sent away for merely asserting what one believed to be one’s
rights――for impatience of routine, a hundred things that did not in
the least imply any serious fault. It must be confessed that in his
heart of hearts he now and then wondered if assertion of his rights,
any more than impatience of routine, could very greatly imperil a boy’s
popularity; but it was not until some time had elapsed that it actually
occurred to him that he ought, after all, to speak to Brocklehurst
himself of the matter, not telling him of course how far public opinion
was against him, but putting him a little on his guard, giving him a
little advice.
It was on a Sunday afternoon when they were out walking together――one
of the latter days of spring――that he finally made up his mind to adopt
this line of conduct; and he approached the subject at once, though at
first a little hesitatingly, and in a rather roundabout fashion.
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