The Girl Who Had NothingWilliamson, A. M. (Alice Muriel)
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The Girl Who Had Nothing
Williamson, A. M. (Alice Muriel)
England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
She quivered with the fierceness of her revolt against fate, yet in it
was no vulgar jealousy. The other girl’s pale blue eyes, in one
contemptuous glance, had found every patch on her frock and shoes, had
criticised her old hat, and sneered at her little, rough, work-worn
hands, scorning her for them as if she were a creature of an inferior
race; but Joan had no personal hatred for the happier child, no wish for
revenge, no desire to take from the other what she had. The feeling
which shook her with sudden, stormy passion was merely the sharp
realisation of injustice, the conviction that by nature she herself was
worthy of the good things she had missed, the savage resolve to have
what she ought to have, at any cost.
It was not tea-time yet, and Minnie was happily asleep; Joan was certain
to be scolded just as sharply on her return as if she had stopped away
for hours longer, therefore she might as well have drained her birthday
cup of stolen pleasure to the dregs; but the good taste of the draught
was gone. She yearned only to go home, to get the scolding over, and to
have a few minutes to herself in the tiny back room which she shared
with the baby. There seemed to be much to think of, much to decide.
The child waked Minnie, who was cross at being roused, and refused to
walk. The quickest way of triumphing over the difficulty was to carry
her, and this method Joan promptly adopted. But the baby was heavy and
fractious. She wriggled in her young nurse’s grasp, and just as Joan
had staggered round the corner of Seafoam Terrace, with her
disproportionate burden, she tripped and fell, under the windows of No.
12.
Minnie roared, and there was an echoing shriek from the house. Mrs.
Boyle, who had been looking up and down the street in angry quest of her
missing drudge, saw the catastrophe and rushed to the rescue of her
offspring. She snatched the baby, who was more frightened than hurt,
and holding her by one arm, proceeded to administer chastisement to
Joan.
Instinctively she knew that the girl was sensitive and proud, though she
had no kindred feelings in her own soul, and she delighted in
humiliating her drudge before the whole street. As she screamed
reproaches and harsh names, raining a shower of blows on Joan’s ears and
head and burning cheeks, a face appeared in at least one window of each
house along the Terrace. Though a cataract of sparks cascaded before
the child’s eyes, somehow she saw the faces and imagined a dozen for
every one.
The shame seemed to her beyond bearing. She forgot even her love for the
baby, which (with the dreams) was the bright thread in the dull fabric
of her existence. After this martyrdom, she neither could nor would
live on in Seafoam Terrace, which with all its eyes had seen her beaten
like a dog.
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