The Glebe 1914/04 (Vol. 2, No. 1): CollectsTraubel, Horace
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The Glebe 1914/04 (Vol. 2, No. 1): Collects
Traubel, Horace
American essays -- 20th century; Literature, Modern -- 20th century -- Periodicals
I'm so glad I was born. And you are one of my reasons for being glad.
You were born, too. And I hope you are as glad about me as I am glad
about you. I hope you are glad you were born. They say this is a vale of
tears. So it is. It is also a vale of laughter. And laughter and tears
give life a single purpose. And laughter in tears is glorious. Do you
think I try to hide sorrow from myself? It sweetens the sap of the tree.
I take sorrow for the uses of joy. I dont let sorrow get away with the
field. I dont let the bad increase and crowd out salvation. I'm so glad
I was born. There's so much work to do. And I'm glad I was born just
this time. If I had been given a choice of all ages I would have chosen
just this age. Not old Greece with all its art or old Rome with all its
conquests or France in eighty-nine or America in seventy-six or
sixty-one. No age of Pericles for me. No Weimar. No Granada. No
Elizabethan era. No age of privileged exceptions. Give me the Bowery and
nineteen hundred six. Give me the democratic rule. God anticipated my
whim and said: Humor him--it wont hurt. So I came along as well
prophesied as anybody. And I know it wont hurt. It will help. Do you
suppose I mean nothing? Then if I mean nothing God means nothing and the
stars mean nothing and the love in your heart means nothing. I am not in
doubt about my power and my style. The earth wont be just the same after
I am done. It will be different and better. I am appointed to make it
better. So are you. Do you not see that plainly indicated everywhere: So
are you? I will not bray a path into history. Nor fill ostentatious
offices. Nor be recognized as the supreme master this or that of a
profession. But the universe cant spare me. I, too, must mount the
cross. The universe needs my mediation. I know I was not produced for
nothing. It cost a heap to produce me. I must catch up with an immense
ancestral obligation. I must make good for my cosmic bed and board. I
have got to prove that the first atom in faraway time knew what it was
about when it attracted and repulsed and dreamed towards me. I've got to
justify all of my ancestors and I've got to lay my plans so my
descendants will justify me. I must pass everything on with something
added to it. Music with more music. Painting with more painting. Good
books with more good books. All the noble work of man with more noble
work of men added. No way turning the tide back. With happiness enough
in me to last all the misery out. With light enough in me to last all
the misery out. With light enough in me to last all the darkness out.
With strength enough in me to last all the weakness out. Sad, too, for
those in grief. But gladder, too, for those who are reprieved. Certain
that whatever may come no eclipsing harm can come. Certain that no
raindrop in the universe can lose its way. Certain that we are jealously
cared for though we do not always see the hand that cares and though
that hand is sometimes cruel.
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