He walked out of the room and out of the house, and after waiting at the
station whence he despatched a telegram to his housekeeper, who was not
expecting him back for two or three days, took the first train—a slow
one—to London.
In his corner of the railway carriage the much-afflicted man sat
motionless, brooding. Everything had happened that could shake to its
foundations a man’s faith in humanity, and swallow it up in abysmal
darkness. Suddenly, as though by a prearranged design—as we know was
the case with his forerunner in the land of Uz—cataclysm after
cataclysm had revealed to him the essential baseness, treachery, cruelty
of mankind. For in his eyes these were proved to be essential qualities.
Had they not been revealed to him, not by fitful gleams, but in one
steady lurid glare, in the nature of those who had been nearest to him
in the world—Angela, Will Hammersley, Marrable, Huckaby, Vandermeer,
Billiter, Mathew Quixtus? If the same hell-streak ran through the souls
of these, surely it must run through the souls of all the sons and
daughters of Adam. Now here came the great puzzle. Why should he,
Ephraim Quixtus, (as far as he could tell) vary from the unkindly race
of man? Why hitherto had baseness, treachery, and cruelty been as
foreign to his nature as an overpowering inclination towards arson or
homicide? Why had he been unequipped with these qualities which appeared
to serve mortals as weapons wherewith to fight the common battle of
life? The why, he could not tell. That he had them not, was obvious.
That he had gone to the wall through lack of them was obvious, too.
Instead of the dagger of baseness, the sword of cruelty, the shield of
treachery, all finely tempered implements of war, he had been fighting
with the wooden lath of virtue and the brawn-buckler of trust. Armed as
he should have been, he would have out-manœuvred Marrable at his own
game, kept his wife in chaste and wholesome terror of his jealousy, sent
Huckaby and Company long since to the limbo where they belonged, deluded
his uncle into the belief that he was a devil of a fellow, and now be
standing with flapping wings and crowing voice triumphant on this
dunghill of a world. But he had been hopelessly outmatched. Whoever had
taken upon himself the responsibility of equipping him for the battle of
life had been guilty of incredible negligence. But on whom could he call
to remedy this defect? Men called on the Unknown God to make them good;
but it would be idiotic as well as blasphemous to call on Him to make
one bad. How, then, were the essential qualities of baseness, treachery,
and cruelty to be captured and brought into his armoury? Perhaps the
Devil might help. But we are so matter-of-fact and scientific in these
days that even the simple soul of Quixtus could not quite believe in his
existence. If he had lived in the Middle Ages (so in scholarly gloom ran
his fancy) he could have drawn circles and pentagrams and things on the
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