floor, and uttered the incantations, and all the hierarchy of hell would
have been at his command, Satanas, Lucifer, Mephistopheles, Asmodeus,
Samael, Asael, Beelzebub, Azazel, Macathiel. . . . Quixtus rather leaned
towards Macathiel—the name suggested a merciless, bowelless,
high-cheek-boned devil in a kilt——
Impatiently he shook his thoughts free from the fantastic channel into
which they had wandered and brought them back into the ever-thickening
slough of his soul. The train lumbered on, stopping at pretty wayside
stations where fresh-faced folk with awkward gait and soft deep voices
clattered cheerily past Quixtus’s windows on their way to or from the
third-class carriages, or at the noisier, bustling stations of large
towns. Now and then a well-dressed traveller invaded his solitude for a
short distance. But Quixtus sat in his remote corner seeing, hearing
nothing, brooding on the baseness, treachery, and cruelty of mankind. He
had come to the end of love, the end of trust, the end of friendship.
When the shapes of those who were still loyal to him flitted across his
darkened fancy he cursed them in his heart. They were as corrupt as the
rest. That they had not been found out in their villainy only proved a
thicker mask of hypocrisy. He had finished with them all. If he had been
a more choleric man gifted with the power of picturesque vehemence of
language he might have outrivalled Timon of Athens in the denunciations
of his fellows. It must be a relief to any one in such a frame of mind
to stand up and, with violent gestures, express his views in terms of
sciatica, itches, blains, leprosy, venomed worms and ulcerous sores, and
to call upon the blessed breeding sun to draw from the earth rotten
humidity, and below his sister’s orb to infect the air. He knows exactly
what he feels, gives it full artistic expression, and finds himself all
the better for it. But Quixtus, inarticulate, had no such comfort.
Indeed, he could hardly have expressed the welter of horror, hate, and
misery that was his moral being, in any form of speech whatever. As the
train rumbled on, the phrase “Evil be thou my good” wove itself into the
rhythm of the machinery. He let it sing dully and stupidly in his ears,
and his mind worked subconsciously back to Macathiel.
As yet he had imagined no future attitude towards life. His soul was in
a state of negation. The insistent invocation of Evil was but a
catchword, irritating his brain and having no real significance. At the
most he envisaged the future as a period of inactive misanthropy and
suspicion. He had as yet no stirrings to action. On the other hand, he
did not, like Job, after the first series of afflictions, rend his
clothes, shave his head, and bear his reverses with pious resignation.
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