British -- India -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
"Indeed, it's not done!" she flashed out defiantly. "I have no notion
of being your wife on sufferance, I assure you. We are only on the
threshold as yet. We need not go a step farther unless we choose. And
after what you have said to me, . . . I do not choose."
For an instant the man was stunned into silence; then, in a desperate
impulse, took a step towards her.
"Quita, . . . you don't realise what you are saying? Nothing can alter
the fact that we are man and wife, now and always."
She motioned him from her with an imperious gesture.
"Don't touch me, please. I do realise, perfectly, that we are not free
to make any more dangerous experiments. But we are at least free to
live and work independently of one another. Of course I know that you
can compel me to remain with you,"--her colour deepened on the
words.--"But I know also that you have too much chivalry, too much
pride, to force yourself upon me against my wish."
"By God, yes!" he answered from between his teeth. "And . . . what is
your wish, may I ask?"
For the first time she hesitated, and lowered her eyes.
"I believe our wishes are identical," she said.
"No need to trouble about mine. You can put them out of court
altogether."
His tone spurred her to instant decision.
"My wish is to go back to Zermatt at once, by the funicular; and . . .
that we should not see one another again. I will accept nothing from
you. I can earn my own living, as I have done till now. Thank God,
Michael is too blessedly Bohemian to make a fuss, or be horrified at
things. He will simply be overjoyed to get me back."
She turned from him hastily; and he stood, like a man paralysed,
watching her go. On the threshold of the bedroom door she looked back.
"Don't think of writing to me, or of trying to patch up a
reconciliation between us," she said on a softened note. "Mended
things are never reliable. I can neither forget nor forgive what you
have said to me to-day, and when you have had time to think things
over, you will probably feel thankful that I had the courage to leave
you."
The soft closing of the door roused him, and he sprang forward with her
name on his lips. Then Pride gripped him; Pride, and the habit of
self-mastery hammered into him by his redoubtable uncle. The fact that
our spirits thus live and work, deathlessly, in the lives and hearts of
those with whom we have come into contact, is a form of immortality too
seldom recognised by man.
In the silence that followed, Lenox looked blankly round the empty
room:--the room where they should have spent their first evening
together. Then the irony, the finality of it all, overwhelmed him, and
he sank upon the nearest chair. "What have I done? . . . My God, what
have I done?" he breathed aloud. And it is characteristic of the man
that, for all his grinding sense of injury, he blamed himself more
bitterly than he blamed his wife.
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