British -- India -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
"Yes. Drugged tobacco:--opium, a good strong mixture," the other
answered bluntly. "You may as well have it straight. You're an
understanding fellow; and no Pharisee."
Then, in a few clipped sentences, he stated the bald facts of the case,
culminating in his discovery of the previous night. He leaned forward
in speaking; elbows on knees; eyes averted from the other's face.
"You see, it's in the blood,--that's the hell of it all," he concluded
fiercely. "This morning, when I'd had my fill of thinking things out,
I took a stiff dose of chlorodyne. Smashed the bottle afterwards, in
disgust. But where's the use? The dice are loaded: and no doubt one
will be driven back to it again, sooner or later."
Words and tone betrayed the dread note of fatalism--the moral microbe
of the East. But men of Theo Desmond's calibre rarely succumb to its
paralysing influence.
"Look here, Lenox,"--he spoke almost brusquely,--"you must get quit of
that notion. No man worth his salt goes to meet failure half-way. I
grant you're on the edge of an ugly pit, and if you insist on peering
into it, your chance is gone. All you have to do is to shut your eyes,
and hang to the reins like the very deuce; if it's only for the sake
of--your wife. Honor told me about her," he added, with more
gentleness.
But Lenox threw up his head impatiently. "My wife?" he repeated on a
note of concentrated bitterness. "The greatest kindness I could do her
would be to plunge wholesale into the pit, and give her back the
freedom she wants. A man with a taint in his blood has no business to
beget children foredoomed to fight--and lose."
"My good chap," Desmond broke in hotly. "I'll never believe that any
living soul is foredoomed to lose. The chance of a fight, no matter
how heavy the odds, includes the chance of victory. And even if things
do look a bit hopeless for a time, our orders are plain and straight;
'No surrender.'"
Lenox searched his face.
"Ever been through the fire yourself?"
Desmond nodded.
"I suppose moat of us have to go through hell once or twice," he said
quietly. "And I know how it feels to wish that some one would lock up
my revolver."
For answer Lenox got up and paced the room, head down; hands plunged
deep into trouser-pockets; lost, by now, to all sense of his
incongruous appearance.
The other watched him thoughtfully. Then his hand went to his
breast-pocket, and drew out a leather case. A man proffers tobacco to
a friend in trouble as instinctively as a woman proffers a caress.
"Have a cheroot?" he said, holding them out: and Lenox checked his
pacing.
"Thanks,--no. I've no taste for 'em. Never had."
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