Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
It might be said that she had no history, but to such an assertion, did
she hear it, she would offer an indignant denial, could she be indignant
about anything. She had been perfectly, admirably happy for fifty-six
years, and that, after all, is to have a history to some purpose. She
had nothing whatever to be happy about. She had no money at all, and had
never had any. She had, for a great number of years, been compelled to
live upon her brother’s charity, and she was the most independent soul
alive. In strict truth she had, of her own, thirty pounds a year, and
the things that she did with those thirty pounds are outside and beyond
any calculation. “There’s always _my_ money, George,” she would say when
her brother had gloomy forebodings about investments. She lived, in
fact, a minute, engrossing, adventurous, flaming life of her own, and
the flame, the colour, the fire were drawn from her own unconquerable
soul. In her bedroom—faded wall-paper, faded carpet, faded chairs
because no one ever thought of her needs—she had certain possessions, a
cedar-wood box, a row of books, a water-colour sketch, photographs of
the family (Katherine 3½, Vincent 8 years old, Millicent 10 years, etc.,
etc.), a model of the Albert Memorial done in pink wax, a brass tray
from India, some mother-of-pearl shells, two china cats given to her,
one Christmas day, by a very young Katherine—those possessions were her
world. She felt that within that bedroom everything was her own. She
would allow no other pictures on the wall, no books not hers in the
book-case. One day when she had some of the thirty pounds ‘to play with’
she would cover the chairs with beautiful cretonne and she would buy a
rug—so she had said for the last twenty years. She withdrew, when life
was tiresome, when her sister Aggie was difficult, when there were
quarrels in the family (she hated quarrels) into this world of her own,
and would suddenly break out in the midst of a conversation with “I
might have the bed _there_” or “There isn’t really room for another
chair if I had one,” and then would make a little noise like a top,
‘hum, hum, hum’. In defiance of her serenity she could assume a terrible
rage and indignation were any member of the family attacked. Her brother
George and Katherine she loved best—she did not, although she would
never acknowledge it, care greatly for Henry—Millie she admired and
feared. She had only to think of Katherine and her eyes would fill with
tears ... she was a very fount of sentiment. She had suffered much from
her sister Agnes, but she had learnt now the art of withdrawal so
perfectly that she could escape at any time without her sister being
aware of it. “You aren’t listening, Elizabeth,” Agnes would cry
suspiciously.
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