Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
One number in the programme I found extremely trying. A young woman whom
Rachel and some of her friends disliked was, with a set of old songs, to
make a first appearance on which she had based all her hopes for the
future of herself and her family. This young woman was blessed with
unduly, almost grotesquely prominent hips and a pretty but too slight
voice, weakened still farther by her excitement and in marked contrast
to her muscular development. Rachel had posted among the audience a
certain number of friends, male and female, whose business it was by
their sarcastic comments to put the novice, who was known to be timid,
out of countenance, to make her lose her head so that her turn should
prove a complete failure, after which the manager would refuse to give
her a contract. At the first notes uttered by the wretched woman,
several of the male audience, recruited for that purpose, began pointing
to her backward profile with jocular comments, several of the women,
also in the plot, laughed out loud, each flute-like note from the stage
increased the deliberate hilarity, which grew to a public scandal. The
unhappy woman, sweating with anguish through her grease-paint, tried for
a little longer to hold out, then stopped and looked round the audience
with an appealing gaze of misery and anger which succeeded only in
increasing the uproar. The instinct to imitate others, the desire to
shew their own wit and daring added to the party several pretty
actresses who had not been forewarned but now threw at the others
glances charged with malicious connivance, and sat convulsed with
laughter which rang out in such violent peals that at the end of the
second song, although there were still five more on the programme, the
stage manager rang down the curtain. I tried to make myself pay no more
heed to the incident than I had paid to my grandmother’s sufferings when
my great-aunt, to tease her, used to give my grandfather brandy, the
idea of deliberate wickedness being too painful for me to bear. And yet,
just as our pity for misfortune is perhaps not very exact since in our
imagination we recreate a whole world of grief by which the unfortunate
who has to struggle against it has no time to think of being moved to
self-pity, so wickedness has probably not in the mind of the wicked man
that pure and voluptuous cruelty which it so pains us to imagine. Hatred
inspires him, anger gives him an ardour, an activity in which there is
no great joy; he must be a sadist to extract any pleasure from it;
ordinarily, the wicked man supposes himself to be punishing the
wickedness of his victim; Rachel imagined certainly that the actress
whom she was making suffer was far from being of interest to any one,
and that anyhow, in having her hissed off the stage, she was herself
avenging an outrage on good taste and teaching an unworthy comrade a
lesson. Nevertheless, I preferred not to speak of this incident since I
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